During Fall Conference 1992 Michael Kekel Raped Me At New Testament Christian Church National Campground Near Mexico, MO / Mark Twain Lake and Ralph St. Clair Raped Me At The Hotel

In the previous post, Julie Ridgeway alleged that kekel raped her at his "custom house" on the New Testament Christian Church Seminary Campus in 1990 when she was a 16 year-old teen bride in the NTCC [read more].  In this post she alleges that Michael C. Kekel raped her during a conference at the NTCC National Campground near Mexico, Missouri and that the man who raised her [her so-called 'father'], Ralph St. Clair, also raped her at the hotel during this same conference [fall 1992].  From her e-mail:


Subject:  some of the scrambled sexual dealings as an adult in NTCC

I am now going to share that the sexual abuse didn’t stop when I turned eighteen.

I got away from Kekel for a time living in San Antonio Texas. The next time he got a hold of me sickens me and makes me wonder how he pulled it off so openly. It was a conference on the campground. My son was only 4 months old. I was informed that Kekel wanted to see me in the Lodge. I was surprised he wanted to see me there since Grant who was 2 months old at this time, Tanya, and Kekel were staying in a motorhome on the campground. I didn’t want to go see him. I wanted to get back to my baby. I had to leave him in a motel room with many other children and was upset that I was being made to be away from him plus I was nursing him. I had to have him picked up. The evil wicked man was keeping me from my baby.

The Lodge where, Julie alleges, Mike Kekel
Raped Julie while Mike's wife Tanya and son
Grant stayed in a Recreational Vehicle that
was parked on the slab (lower right of pic).

 Close-Up Pic Google's View of The Lodge 
 Red Balloon Marks Slab For R.V. Parking. 
 Cursor Marks The Lodge Front Entrance. 
 Coordinates: 39°24'47.4"N 91°51'19.2"W
 View On Google: Close-Up or Whole Camp 

I got to the Lodge only a few leaders seem to be around if there were others they must have been in their rooms. Kekel took me to a room. I don’t know if it was his or not. He ordered me to be quiet since people were resting. If I had been raised right I would have known to scream at that moment but I knew nothing about protecting myself or what my rights were even. He had me have intercourse with him. He said Tanya wasn’t ready for sex yet and with the burdens he had to carry as a minister he needed relief. He went on to say God had spoken to him and said to call for me that he might have his needs met. Then he would be able to be a better leader to the people. He tried to French kissed but I wasn’t willing to return it so he told me I was going to do something really special for you but you just lost out. When I finally left the room there didn’t seem to be anyone around. Because of this disgusting creep my baby had to wait on me.

Nighttime insulting session (church) came and I didn’t want to go. I knew there was no choice so I went. Kekel greeted me so cheesily “God bless you Sis.Ridgeway so good to see you this conference.” I wanted to hide I felt so dirty yet I had to pretend all was okay that I was happy. I had to act in the service excited jumping with joy of the Lord. All that craziness. I can’t count the many times I would be hurt with all the stuff they would expect one to do in a service. Hello I had physical limitations. I lived in fear of being called to go to him again but he didn’t ask for me again that conference. Ralph did though.  Davis and Olson like clockwork had to insult me and put me down. I was stopping the ministry where I was at.  I felt like such trash. I was told as a child I was hurting Ralph’s ministry now I am hurting someone else ministry. Davis also told me that conference that he didn’t even know why I was born I was such a burden and all I did destroying the work of the Lord. Kekel was there when he said this and threw in his two-cents. Kekel said it would have been better that someone had aborted her retarded people like her don’t have a right to be around all they do is take up space they are a waste of time and money. I felt like the dumbest person on earth. I was so mixed up; was I wrong for not wanting sex with Kekel, was I wrong for not giving in to the kissing, was I wrong somehow? I have wondered all my life why I was born. It is an awful feeling to think I was mistake. I felt this my whole life even as an adult. I shouldn’t have been born.

He Ain't Heavy He's My Brother Video

I didn’t want Ralph and Joan having contact with my son but didn’t know how to fully stop it so when Ralph and Joan wanted time with him at conference the best I could do was make sure I was around as much as I possible could. One of the days at the conference I wasn’t feeling good I think now it was just the stress I was under. Donny had taken our son out for a little while and I laid to rest. Ralph and Joan were in the same motel. I was laying down when I got a knock on my door. I didn’t look out just opened it up. Ralph was standing there. He said I am coming to spend time in your room since Joan is resting. I said well I am resting too. He pushed his way in and said I know Donny told me he was going out so you could rest. I am now regretting wanting to rest and even more opening the door at all. Once again we had intercourse after he made me mouth him a little. I want to die. I want life to be over. My life is just one disgusting mess. No one will ever understand how I feel. No one will ever care. He left and I began to cry then I got mad at myself for the tears. I put myself back together as I think why does this have to happen. I didn’t know I had rights I didn’t know I could demand these men to leave me alone and that they had stop. I didn’t know they had no right to control me and force me to do anything.

to be continued

Can you see how it would impact a girl raised by sexual predators in the NTCC? Can you understand that her whole world revolved around NTCC, its rules, its people, and its CULTure? During this time the internet was called the sinnernet and was preached against. During this time the television was called the devilvision and preached against. During this time nobody did anything unless they first got permission from the NTCC 'leaders'. Can you see how that would isolate an abuse victim who had been raised in the NTCC and make it impossible for her to understand how wrong all of this was? These controls created and enforced by NTCC CULTivated this CULTure where sexual abuse thrived and victims suffered with no way out.

Update 4-9-2014

Anonymous said...

Thank you Julie for writing so much about your life. I left NTCC with my wife and children but have been struggling greatly. My family has missed our friends who say they won't have us confuse their children by having us in their lives. We must go back to NTCC to have our friends. I thought about going back thinking I was hurting my family by leaving. I began to pray God I need a clear answer what am as a leader of my family to do? I didn't know anything about this blog. Since we lived in a new area I went to look up the local NTCC church I ended up on this site. I read every article you have written and for the first time in years I felt the peace of God. Julie you truly have Jesus your responses scream it loud and clear. I am sorry what each of the women on this blog have gone through. I shared with my wife what I found and she began to cry said Thank you Lord for getting us out together and keeping us safe. I say even if there is only a handful of victims I would not want to risk my children becoming a part of the handful.

Julie God through you saved our family and now even our children are finally at peace making new Christians friends that have more caring than they could have imagined. You may have to repeat your articles to make sure all see them. I have daughters I would be angry if someone ever hurt them. My wife and I hate what you have gone through but we are forever grateful you like little David stood up and said I will face the giant.

Tuesday, April 08, 2014 2:55:00 PM

Julie said,

Anonymous said....

As I read the comments seeing lives effected for God by what is written I say it did happen but God is using it now for his glory.

For of him, and through him, and to him, are all things: to whom be glory for ever. Amen. Romans 11:36 [link]

God is truly at work and only He can change lives. All Glory belongs to Him. I love Jesus and I would never want to live without Him.

Hugs,

Julie
Wednesday, April 09, 2014 8:31:00 AM

Offerings In The Rain

UPDATE:

Anonymous said...

Oh this is what happened that day. I was around that day she was told Kekel wanted to see her at the Lodge. Her son was just an infant. I didn’t see or hear her called to go see him but after she had already gone I was asked to wait for her. I was to take her to the motel where her baby was when the meeting was over. What I am about to say it hard for me to even type.

Julie got out. She didn’t seem okay in fact seemed pretty shock up. She walk or more stumbled to my car. I said Sis. Ridgeway what is wrong what did you get in trouble for this time. I really didn’t know Julie at all but I had witnessed her being told before this day that one or more of the leaders wanted to speak to her. She got into the car she seemed in a daze. I had to help her get her seat belt on because she seemed unable to focus on the task at hand. What is wrong with this girl something isn’t right?

She starts rocking back and forth mumbling like she isn’t present at all. She said things like I don’t want to do this. I’m dumb stupid I’m yucky. I don’t like the bedrooms. Why must this happen? I want it to stop. It’s scary. She continued with I hate myself I hate myself. I am going to hell where I belong.

I called her by name finally getting her attention I asked her what was this meeting about it jars her. Now I wish I hadn’t jarred her in her daze she might have said more. She tells me it is a sin to tell and my baby needs me; she goes silent the rest of the car ride. The rocking continues and she began to do something strange. She began to wipe at her tongue like something was on it she couldn’t get off. Now I am thinking she was bothered by the French kissing.

We get to the motel her baby is crying his head off. She picks him up and the mother in her kicks in she started singing to him softly. He calms right down. For one that was so young and so hurt she was an amazing mother. We part ways at this point.

I am bothered by that day. I go to the night service and then fellowship. I decide to go talk to Kekel the next day to find out what was happening because I didn’t like seeing Julie this way. I told him the next day it was really important that I speak to him. He agrees to talk to me after the service. We check up with each other after the service. I told him of taking Julie to the motel after their meeting and that Julie didn’t seem okay. He immediately got an angry look on his face. He asked me if she said what the meeting was about I said no. He seems a little calmer. He asked me a bunch of questions. I answered.

Later that night Davis came and talked to me asking me what Julie said? He told me not to believe what comes out of her mouth only 1/10 of what she says is true. He said she is so dumb sometimes she doesn’t even remember her name. I thought is she mentally messed up is that what I witnessed it still bothered me that he said this of her. She was married yet I even got grilled by Ralph St. Clair too. I should have woke up right there but instead I starting believing Julie was the problem.

Ralph St. Clair must have gotten a hold of Julie the day after Kekel did because she was worse that night walking around in a daze not really talking with anyone. In the motel that night her son was a sleep at her feet in his car seat. Everyone was laughing and joking. There sat Julie looking distressed very scared, and so sad. I am so mad at myself for not reaching out. Maybe a hug would have let her know someone really cared.

Don and Ange thanks for having an enough faith to allow Julie to write on this blog. Even though you didn’t witness what happened to her personally I am glad you loved her enough to give her a voice. Finally someone standing up for her and trusting her. I hope your love and support doesn’t leave her no matter what. She needs beautiful Christian friends as you because she probably doesn’t have many true friends. She is lucky to have you so very lucky!

Friday, April 11, 2014 6:32:00 PM
We wanted people to see this comment in red by the person who gave Julie a ride from the Lodge back to the hotel where her son Thomas was waiting for her.

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