| NTCC CEO M.C. |
KEKEL - Accused
of Raping a Child
in 1990 at NTCS!
As I take on the writing this part of my life I cringe wondering if I will just receive more judgment than understanding. You have to know I have lived most of my life away from the other side world. It was a shock to me in 2013 when someone finally got me to understand that Ralph St.Clair having sex with me as a child was wrong and it wasn’t my fault. I believe the lies I was told that I made him fall for me. I was the evil slut. He was clean before God I was the dirty one is what I was told.
I am now going to share that the sexual abuse didn’t stop when I got married. It continued even while I was married. I hated it with a passion yet I had to pretend everything was okay but wasn’t okay. Every time I was alone my heart ached I hated it and I thought the whole world hated me too.
I am bawling just thinking and typing this so please bear with me.
| Picture of Google's Street View of the Entrance |
to the NTCC Bible School circa 1990.
On the left was the Main Chapel used then
"The Church Behind The Fence" (with globe).
On the right, behind the reddish tree, is
the house custom built for the kekels and
where, Julie alleges, she was raped by
Michael Craig Kekel - now NTCC's CEO.
To View On Google Earth Click Here
I lived in fear of the Graham campus on about every level. Certain buildings scared me more than others. I would start trembling inside at arrival upon the grounds. I knew I had to hold back my feelings for knew there would be a price to pay if I showed them. I learned this very well. In fact they had me believing they could spank me even in my adulthood. I was told men had all power and I must do whatever they said; I was never too old for them to spank me. Growing up in NTCC I had no opportunity to learn anything else.
Kekel who loved to spank me all through my childhood seem to be just waiting until I got married to have even worse dealings with me. The leaders’ wives would sometimes be the ones that picked me up to go to the Kekel’s house. It makes me wonder how much some of these wives knew yet said nothing.
| Kekels' Custom House as seen when leaving the campus. |
Though he has moved into other mansions, this "custom house"
holds vivid memories of rape for Julie St. Clair Ridgeway.
The first time after I was married. I was called told that Kekel wanted me to come to his house and do some cleaning. Some comments he had made before made me wonder if I was in trouble and going to get a spanking. I got dropped off. I walked to the door I was shaking so badly. Once he let me inside I realized really quickly no one else was home. As I stumbled all over my words I asked where his wife was at. He said she was gone for the day. I realized once again I was alone with a man. I was scared. I wanted to run. One of the thing I was taught if a girl ran in this situation God would sometimes send fire from heaven and cause burns on the girl’s body. I had a phobia of fire; I wasn’t sure if I wanted to find out if this was one of these times. Plus I wasn’t sure where to run, no one on that campus would help me since this was God’s Will for me.
He took a belt and started beating me. He told me to quickly get undressed. I was sixteen years old. I didn’t know what the news was at this time. I had never read the paper I had seen the comics before but knew nothing else about the paper. I had never watched the news on TV. I didn’t know about rape and abuse. What was happening was normal as it came for me? I thought I was sinning because I hated what was happening. One might ask how can you have not understood how wrong this was and how to stop it. It is like someone being locked away never seeing the modern things in life and someone expecting them to understand how everything works. I didn’t know what was right and wrong. I just knew I was hurting really bad and no one seemed to care.
In the blur of the moment as I was undressing I didn’t realize he had unclothed as well. He told me to get on all four. I knew this was going to be a difficult battle for with cerebral palsy I had a hard time holding that position. He said I heard from Ralph that having sex with you is some of the best. He put himself in me and as expected I couldn’t stay up and I crumbled to the floor. He began spanking me than finally told me to get in position again. This happened 4 times before he actually came in me. I was in so much pain but I knew I had to keep from crying. He had me clean up and get dress. He told me to get dress than he gave me a few things to do around the house. He told me if I was ever sloppy with sex with him again I would pay dearly for it. I wasn’t sure what that would mean with Kekel. I only knew what this meant with Davis and others.
The next time with him I did learn what he was saying when he said I would pay dearly for it. Once again I was brought over by one of the leaders’ wives. There was a repeat of the last time. This time I started crying which I had for the most part been able to control for I had been taught to not have emotions. Happy was the only way I was allowed to be. I still to this day punish myself for having emotions. It is a struggle for me. This time he teased me and made me come half way than laughed told me to get up clean up and get dress. So I did as I was told. This was part of my punishment.
I was accused later of ruining Tanya’s tablecloth. I had not even been at the table the last time I was there.
I was dying inside. I wanted to tell someone what was happening but was so scared so I started telling people a tiny bit of what took place in my childhood. They all went to Davis about what I said. The next thing I knew I was in a board meeting which didn’t go well. Davis decided to send us back to San Antonio Texas. Kekel and Davis were so angry with me. They scared me so badly that I went into silence for years fearing there was no hope of anyone believing what was happening in my life. I thought I was unlovable. Everything always came with conditions. I was taught as a child I had to earn love and even then it was conditional.
to be continued
As you can see Julie was treated as a sex slave in the NTCC. Her difficult life involved much abuse as both a special needs person having Cerebral Palsy and as an under-educated girl subject to the whims of every adult pervert in her life. Limited in social contact by only being around other cult members, and without T.V. to educate herself, her whole world revolved around the NTCC and what they taught her. Without tools to protect herself, she was a target of opportunity for many predators, including her parents and church leaders who were in positions of trust and should have been protecting her instead of raping her. There was no way for her to know what was right or normal and what was wrong and abuse. The only thing she had was God's Spirit constantly getting quenched by the false doctrines of men and women of corrupt minds. It's a wonder and testament to God's grace that she survived, became a Christian, and is now championing the cause of others who may be living in the same dire straits as she did as a child in the NTCC.
What's our opinion of this? First of all, we believe Julie. Secondly, our prayer is that no other child will suffer this way. In light of this, we have published this post. Parents, please take heed and protect your children. The NTCC is not a safe environment.
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