Part 1: My Life and Times in the ntcc: or "Why I Left ntcc"
Part 2: The Celibacy Policy: or "Forbidding To Marry"
Part 4: Nichelle Tieman's Adultery and Lying: NOT Overseer Material
Recently an anonymous commentator on Jeff's blog said:
"Hey, since we believe everything someone says about another without any verification at all let me tell you a story I heard. [Don] once confessed that he was Homosexual. And he got kicked out of the Army (as an E6 mind you) for stealing...."
In Reply to this accusation I would like to publish a copy of this recent email that I sent to Bruce Smith. I was patiently waiting for this opportunity to address the issue of Homosexual Pastors in the ntcc. The Letter to Bruce reads as follows:
I was a Serviceman and lived in serviceman's homes and churches for 13 years and served under 14 pastors. While I did not see the daily workings of the upper echelon leadership I have a rather unique perspective on what happens in the field of Serviceman's work where the majority of ntcc souls are harvested from and later sent to bible school. Servicemen are perfect candidates for ntcc as they are used to following orders without question. I was no exception to this. While ntcc does preach Christ and Him crucified, which biblically is the vehicle by which souls are brought to Christ, it's what takes place after men and women are sincerely saved and hungering for more God in their lives that wreaks havoc and destruction in the lives of the new ntcc Christian. The word of God is preached in the "power and demonstration" of the Spirit of God to bring souls to Christ, and then it is preached in power and demonstration of man to shape people into obedient mindless servants that can be used and exploited financially, emotionally and spiritually.
I was reached in a servicemen's home while still in training at Fort Gordon, Ga. Shortly thereafter, I went on to my permanent duty station and moved into the ntcc Serviceman's home and church. Christianity was new to me and I loved God and the brethren. I was praying and studying God's word and participating in every function to include church services, bible studies, prayer meetings, soul winning, fellowship meetings. The average day for me started at 05:00. I would get up get dressed, pray and read, ride my bicycle to PT formation at 06:30. Do Army physical training for 1 hour, then ride my bicycle back to the Home, take a shower, and ride my bicycle to the airfield where I would work from 9 to 5 if lucky, then ride my bike to the home. At the Home I would change into wingtips, slacks and a white shirt to prepare for whatever activity we were going to participate in that evening. But the first thing we would do, every night before we participated in any thing spiritual we would pray thanking God for the huge amount of food we were about to stuff down our throats. We would gorge ourselves and feast like gluttons every night. Then we would pray and go soul winning or pray and go pick up people for church or pray and go pick up people for Bible study or we would just pray. But whatever we did, you can be assured that we would follow it up with fellowship and fellowship always included food. By the time we were done it was 11pm or midnight and we'd have to get to sleep to start the whole cycle over again. In addition to this, we were expected to get in personal prayer time, bible reading witnessing and soul winning in addition to anything the military required of us.
Those of us who participated with all of our heart in these activities were esteemed and highly praised while those who were a little more cautious and less enthusiastic about donating their heart mind and soul to "the work of God" were "Jacked up" and rebuked publicly in church while the rest of us shouted amen. I used to think that the others that were hesitant to blindly follow these teachings were going to lose their souls while the few of us that participated and received praise from behind the pulpit, were the only ones that were going to heaven. I pray that God forgives me for being so judgmental and allowing myself to be so manipulated.
Within a few months of being saved, I was being taught new things in the bible and things that were not in the bible. The next part of my story does not apply to everyone in ntcc but was created and allowed to be cultivated by the dictatorships of those involved and unfortunately does not have a happy ending. One of the teachings that was given a lot of emphasis to was foot washings. This was taught as a form of humility and very subtly became foot massages. Foot massages became leg massages which became back massages which became full body massages. These massages would take place in the pastor's bedroom in secret under the guise of "counselling" while the pastor's wife was leading "fellowship" with the brethren. Scriptures would be used to justify these sinful acts like, "unto the pure, all things are pure". The foot massages would take place in the open; and it was a privilege to massage the pastor's feet. What ended up happening was the sin of Homosexuality; it was committed by the pastor and members of the congregation. This pastor realized that he had sinned and requested to go back to Bible school to be "restored". He never openly confessed this sin until later, when he was caught; but rather told church leadership that he needed more preparation before going back into serviceman's work and he was praised for his humility and humbly admitting that "He needed help". While in transition, to go back to bible school for "restoration" another minister was coming in to take his place. This preacher had seen the foot massages and learned of the sexual abuse; and what did he do? He continued the practice and involved more people in it. Many lives were destroyed, people were permanently damaged and abused. There were brethren that left the church and those that left God. There were rumor's and those that walked in on this sin while it was being committed; and those people left because they were utterly appalled. The pastors involved were asked to leave the "organization" and their wives were recycled. One of the brethren involved pulled the plug by calling Rev. Davis and blowing the whistle. This brother was restored but required to move out of the serviceman's home and was never to speak of this to anyone. The others involved eventually left the church and hopefully were able to get back to God and find peace. Keep in mind that at the peak of all this activity, the serviceman's home was growing. We had 17 people living in the home; and the services were alive; the preaching was on fire; and people were praying for salvation. This preacher preached strict holiness: ie. No shorts, no makeup, no jewelery, no long hair on men or short hair on women, no tv, no pants on women, no worldliness, abstaination from the very appearance of evil.
The next (3rd) pastor that came to take over was on the other end of the spectrum. He would get together with certain of the brethren and rent movies and watch "Faces of Death" with the brethren. He would not preach holiness; and those of us that were still holding out from the last administration thought that we were compromising as a church. The next (4th) pastor was strict; and things seemed to be going in a better direction. I was allowed to move back into the Home; (I'm sure by now many readers have put 2 and 2 together.) By the way this is not easy for me. Later I came down on orders to go overseas; and another sister was also going at the same time. I was told by the Pastor (#4) not to pursue any type of relationship with her; and she was told not to pursue any type of relationship with me.
In Korea I had the only pastor (#6) that I believed was a true man of God. He was in the military like me and was a man of prayer. And he emphasized prayer and relationship with God rather than all the outward things and the do's and don'ts that made ntcc seem cultish. I was honest with this man about my past; and he helped me get back to God. We visited and fellowshipped with another church in Korea and met another ntcc preacher (#5); who did some very weird things. He (#5) liked to take the brethren to the bath houses. The bath houses were where men would go and get naked and get in big hot tubs together and soak for hours. I was told not asked to come along one day by this preacher and felt very uncomfortable about it but didn't want to rock the ntcc boat and went along. These bath houses to me were nothing more than filthy homosexual brothels; which I did not want to be a part of. There were rooms where there would be men laying totally naked in recliners watching tv. We all were told to get into this hot tub and there was a massage table in the middle of the shower room. A Korean man would give massages on this table to anyone who asked. This preacher told me to get up on the table for a massage so he could watch. I told him over and over that I didn't want to do this, that I thought it was inappropriate; and then I caved in and reluctantly obeyed like I would any ntcc command. There I was with a man rubbing on my naked body. He got down to my private area; and I immediately ended the massage in humiliation in front of other brethren. Anyway, this preacher (#5) would always bring groups of brethren to the bath house so that he could see them naked. I remember one time in the serviceman's home he took off his pants to show the brethren how great his Korean underwear looked and felt. In this serviceman's home we didn't have beds but rather small mattresses and sleeping pads that were lined up next to each other on the floor; and it was like one big slumber party where everyone slept next to each other on the floor. Well this pastor did not sleep upstairs with his wife in his own bedroom; but he slept on the floor in the middle of all the brethren within touching distance.
One night he positioned himself next to me and put his hand on my genitals in a way that was not an accident but an uncontrollable urge to be sexually gratified. I told my pastor (#6) what had happened; and he told me to report it. Which I did; and the other pastor (#5) was removed from the work of God; and another pastor's wife recycled. I felt great about myself because I resisted it. From that point on I felt very good about myself for rejecting Homosexuality.
I ended up going back to the States to another ntcc church; where I was at the peak of my life in God. I was praying, preaching, soul winning, and actually seeing the fruits of my labors. In this church there was a woman who was the wife of the pastor of the church; and she would spend a lot of time with the brethren. Up until this point, I have left names out of my story because I realize that there were a lot of people involved; and many were hurt. But in this portion of my story I am going to name Nichelle Tieman as the Pastor's wife of the serviceman's home and church I attended in Colorado Springs. She began to spend a lot of time around me and talking to me during fellowship while her husband was in his room "studying" and praying for messages. Eventually she started rubbing up against me, and making sexual advances toward me. At first I welcomed these advances because they made me feel like a man is supposed to feel and that is masculine. But in my heart I knew that it would lead to adultery and after praying through guilt and shame, I began to reject these advances and they became unwanted and unsolicited advances. I remember one morning while her husband was at work she came and knocked on my door and wanted to lay down with me in my bed. I stood my ground as hard as it was and would not give in. About this time God was about to bless me for my faithfulness to his work. I invited a female soldier named Angela to church who worked in my shop at Ft. Carson. She came out to church and got saved. From the beginning we were both attracted to each other and became very close friends. Nichelle Tieman was making unwanted advances; and I ended up making another call to have another Pastor and wife removed from church. I did not have sex with Nichelle; but we did touch each other inappropriately in the beginning before I started rejecting her; and I admitted this whole story to the General Overseer, Pop Gaylord.
The next part of my story is the most difficult thing I went through in my entire life: ntcc separated me from my dream. After being lied to and abused for years sexually, mentally, and emotionally; and now at the peak of my life for God, feeling that God had forgiven me, and knowing that God had led me to a place where I could be rewarded and have the wife of my dreams -- We were both the same age, both Italian with Italian names; both of us were totally engaged in each others lives; and we talked about being together. We had mutual love and respect for each other that many people do not experience in an entire lifetime. The timing couldn't have been more perfect for both of us.-- And then the unthinkable happened.... I know that any ntcc'er out there whether an Xer or not can predict the outcome of this one.... We were ripped apart from one another in an act of cruelty. What was the reason? She was "called to go to bible school"; and there had to be something wrong with me; because I was not in bible school. I had been in ntcc for 7 years at this point and had to be damaged goods; because I was not a bible school graduate.
Bruce, Please let me finish this later, there is more to continue. I'm probably 3/4 of the way through my story. To be continued.....
My story continued -
Sometime while all of this was happening, one night I got a call and discovered my Mother had died. I told the Tieman's that my mother had departed and went to heaven to be with God; and I remember Nichelle saying that she (my mother), didn't adhere to the teachings of ntcc; and that I was lying to myself thinking she was in heaven! Among other things I remember Nichelle also telling me she had an affair with a bible shcool graduate named Brother Rice. The Tiemans were responsible for splitting me and Angela apart. While I do forgive them it is impossible to forget the irreparable damage done to both of our souls. While Angela went on to Bible school, got matched up through the ntcc dating service with someone totally incompatible with her which eventually ended in Eric Barden abandoning Angela, divorce and her departure from ntcc, I tried my best to overcome my inner sorrow and continue on with Serviceman's work. My entire life and world was turned upside down. After surviving so many storms and winning internal battles and knowing and feeling that God had brought me to this point in my life, all I could do is ask "Why God"? I never got an answer. I was broken into thousands of pieces. I cried myself to sleep every night for months. I could only blame myself. It had to be my past involvement in sin; or perhaps I never was saved. I searched my heart and blamed myself for this, trying to figure out what exactly I did to be rejected by God. It never dawned on me to think that I was in a cult; and that our relationship was destroyed by the will of a proud bunch of preacher's; to whom it was more important to say, "look who we sent to Bible School" rather than allow us the desires of our hearts.
Pieces by Red YouTube
From that point on, things started to slowly go down hill in my life. I went through all the motions of outward Christianity; but inwardly I was dying a slow death. It took six more years for all of the inner strength God gave me to be zapped away from me. I gave the best years of my life to this work; and one day I looked up and realized that I was lost and on my way to hell and part of ntcc at the same time. I witnessed more corruption, hardly worth mentioning, preachers keeping 2 sets of books and lying on finance reports. Wifes withholding sex from their husbands. I'd seen everything and anything you could imagine but never would I come to the realization that ntcc was wrong. One day I left ntcc, the Army, and God at the same time. I decided that if I was going to die and go to hell I might as well do it as a sinner and not from the church pew. I made one futile attempt to return to ntcc but that didn't last; and when I walked out the door for the last time, I was gone for good.
For the past 14 years of my life, I have been living apart from God. I have been in jail, done drugs, smoked cigarettes, drank beer and hard liquor, mismanaged my life and money, and never met anyone that I could fall completely in love with. In spite of everything I'd heard and seen I still thought that I could never get back to God; unless I crawled back to ntcc. And knowing I was no longer welcome in ntcc, I figured the next time I'd see God, it would be at the great white throne of Judgement.
Last week a letter came to my mailbox with a note and an email address from Angela. I couldn't believe it. We started e-mailing each other at first and then texting and calling. I found out that she was an ntcc ex-er and was very outspoken against ntcc. I was a little scared when I started checking out the blogosphere and saw all of the anti-cult articles she had posted; but I also felt like God was once again pulling at my heart strings. It has been 27 years since I first started attending ntcc; and now I was beginning to allow myself to see ntcc for what it really is. Angela and I talked and discovered that we both still loved each other; and that our love was indeed mutual although ntcc teaches that you can't truly love someone until you are married and that marriage is consummated with sex.
All of the sudden lights started coming on; and I began to see what I refused to look at and believe for years. Angela said a few things to me that transcended everything I'd been taught. The first thing she said was that if she still loved me after 20 years how much more would God still love me? Also she said that there is no sin you've committed that God can't forgive you of. David committed murder and adultery; and he is in heaven with God right now.
Angela also told me that if both of us didn't put God first in our lives that our future relationship would never work. I actually knew this in my heart and herein lies the dilemma. How can I get back to God when after you leave ntcc you are a reprobate and an apostate, a God hater and every other thing they call you when you leave. I'd been on the other side of this and it isn't pleasant. I decided that I was going to pray. I really didn't think God would listen; I hadn't prayed in 14 years, Didn't know how or what to pray. So I prayed anyway. I envisioned myself at the foot of the Cross in a huge puddle of Jesus Blood. I asked Jesus if there was any sin that His blood could not wash away in my life. I already knew the answer to this question. I then asked Jesus if it were possible for me to be forgiven. I didn't get a yes or a no. One word entered into my heart and that word was repent. So I asked God if He could help me repent and take all of the evil desires out of my heart and help me to change and once again live for Him. God has exceeded my expectations. I quit smoking, cursing, and eating like a hog; but what's more important than all this outward junk that ntcc focuses on so much is the inward change that came about so easily. Salvation was never meant to be so difficult. It's only been 3 days or so since I prayed and I know cynical people will say "Let's wait and see what happens when the real trials come his way". Brother, I've already been through the real trials! Right now I am feeling joy in my salvation; and God is just as real as He ever was to me. I am grateful to Angela that she never gave up on me and was at a place where God could use her to reach out to me.
I can now see why people are so mad at ntcc. Up until a few days ago I still felt ntcc had the right intentions; and that they were God's only church preaching God's only true word; and there was no hope for sinners outside of ntcc. The reason I'm writing this is because I know there are people trapped in ntcc that think they can never be saved outside of its walls. There are also many, many souls that were discarded or left in discouragement that don't realize that God is waiting for them. To those that come out and think they are a part of something special, escape while you still can. Ask questions, take a close look at the doctrine and structure of the organization, and most of all make sure it's God's voice that you are listening to and not man's.
In closing I would like to thank you Bruce for encouraging Angela to contact me. I am eternally grateful to God that He was able to turn this whole story around and add a happy ending to it! In the next few days I will be in Colorado to reunite with Angela, and will be asking her to marry me very soon. We both have been through a lot but the one constant has been God's love and our love one for another that God placed in our hearts 20 years ago.
Most of all thanks be unto God, for His great love and Divine providence which has brought an everlasting peace to my life and joy to my soul!
Later upon request, I sent this letter to Bruce Smith:
Here are some of the names and time frames that you requested:
| Homosexual '|
1st Pastor in ntcc at Ft. Bragg, NC Servicemen's home was Donald Hummel. He started the Foot Massages in Servicemen's home in 1984 which led to Full Body massages and acts of homosexuality. He felt guilty and asked RWD to return to Bible school but never told him why; he departed NC in fall of 84.
2nd Pastor in ntcc at Ft. Bragg, NC Servicemen's home was Michael Rudy. He continued massages and involved more people. He was removed by RWD after I called and reported acts of homosexuality. This took place in 1986; I believe. Michael Rudy also blew the wistle on Hummel at this time and both were excommunicated from the church according to what I was told by Pop Gaylord.
Pastor #5 of church in Tongduchon Korea, last name Broadnax, [
not sure of (sic)] first name Perry, made homosexual advances toward me in Korea, brought brethren to Bathhouse, and slept with them on floor of svcmens home. I reported him to RWD also; and he was removed from the organization. I'm not sure if he left on his own or was excommunicated or pressured to leave.
This story has been waiting in the wings "for such a time as this". I knew that there were certain individuals in the ntcc that would not be able to keep their mouths shut and not knowing the facts they would accuse me. Lets take a closer look at the facts.
1. I was introduced to Homosexuality by 3 different pastors in the ntcc.
2. If you do the math, that means that 3 out of every 14 pastors in the ntcc (about 21.5%) are Homosexuals; and that's just the ones that got caught.
3. Hitler brainwashed an entire nation to commit or condone genocide to 6 million Jews.
4. RWD created an environment that cultivated Homosexuals.
a) Open showers and stalls at the camp ground.
b) The Celibacy policy: Forbidding to date or talk to members of the opposite sex.
5. I now have a wife; that I love very much and have no interest whatsoever in homosexuality.
6. The Rampant Homosexuality in the ntcc was introduced through the twisting of scriptures (unto the pure, all things are pure); and in most cases that I'm aware of was not mutual to or desired by the victims.
7. I am not hiding from this, nor trying to cover it up. It happened to me and others in the Servicemen's home at Fort Bragg. It even happened to a married brother who was manipulated into getting a circumcision so the so called "man of God" could enjoy "servicing" him.
8. As I have been forthcoming in the blog post, Don's Story or My life and Times in the ntcc, I did not get kicked out of the Army for stealing; I got kicked out for going AWOL. After what I went through in the ntcc, I am grateful that I didn't take a gun and blow my brains out!
9. Above all, God is witness and knows all about these facts that I have shared. If anyone from the ntcc would like to refute the facts, names, and places that these instances occurred, please do. Perhaps some of you remember the Ministers' Retreat that took place on the east coast where there was a vote on Homosexuals being forgiven?
10. All of this was reported by me to Rev. Gaylord and R. W. Davis; because I did not wish for it to continue. I got on with my life the best I could; and now my past and the ntcc's past have been brought back into the spotlight.
Finally, I know that this post is very damning to the ntcc; and that they are going to attack Ange and I to discredit us. We are writing from our experiences the facts of what happened during our lives in the ntcc. Read carefully and you decide for yourselves.