Birds of A Feather

We were looking at Facebook pages and saw how all of a sudden a new friendship has sprouted up between the Ashmores and Donny Ridgeway.  This is very interesting to us; because Donny Ridgeway is one of the many reasons we now have comment moderation on this blog.  He wrote one comment on our blog that was completely degrading Julie.  So we did not publish it.  There were also many anonymous comments from someone who claimed to be a friend of Donny.  Those were some of the filthiest comments we ever got in our moderation folder.  They never contained anything constructive; instead, the person sending those anonymous comments would always just be name-calling and cursing.  There was never any substance. Anonymous would call Julie bad names and talk bad about her due to her Cerebral Palsy. And Anon would use the filthiest expletives (curse words) that you could possibly imagine.  Naturally we did not publish those comments from the 'friend of Donny' Anonymous, nor from the other railers and revilers who used lots of cursing and made lewd suggestions without sharing anything worth reading.  The volume of those sick comments was staggering.  There are really some sick people in this world; and ntcc has more than a fair share of them in their camp.  It was freakish how one girl's stories triggered so many freaks to come out of the woodwork. Maybe they were afraid that she would be blogging about them next?  Who knows?  But the point is, there are lots of twisted people 'defending' the ntcc.

Soap and Cursing on YouTube


We have yet to post Julie's complete testimony about Ashmore; because people had a hard time believing all the board members that were involved in abusing her.  We did get an email from her brother John St. Clair, (that's who claimed to have written it), that acknowledged Ashmore's involvement.  We think Davis purposely arranged for all of these interludes; so that when he got caught nobody could turn on him; because they all did the same thing; they were all dirty.  We mean, how could Ashmore and Kekel out Davis for partaking in the same abuse?

Of course maybe folks just believe that it's all coincidence.  Joan admitted that Ralph raped Julie and lost his phony ntcc preacher's license for six months.  Ralph mysteriously dies without a shred of evidence a year later.  Reports of Ralph receiving preferential treatment like a free, all-expense-paid trip for two to conference and a new car, (hush money), and even a future position on the Board, flooded in.  Most of the stuff we didn't publish; but we still have it on file.  Julie named Kekel, Davis, Ashmore and others as the perpetrators; and not one of them has come forward and denied it.

Julie exposed the Spanking scandal that was prevalent in the ntcc.  Davis, Kekel, Rudy, and others practiced spanking other peoples' children; and they would pull down their underwear to spank them. And Angela (Hill) Eury allegedly was spanking Julie when Julie was a newlywed 16 year old living in San Antonio with Donny Ridgeway.  What was interesting about this, was that we only briefly mentioned Angela (Hill) Eury's name to Julie, and Julie was off and running telling us about how much she allegedly suffered at the hands of AHE.  That speaks to us that this was a reality in Julie's life.  Just the name of Angela (Hill) Eury triggered a huge unexpected outpouring of what Julie allegedly suffered.  She had no reason to share that.  We were not even planning on blogging about that, with all the other topics we needed to cover at that time; but, things have a way of surfacing again over time.  When we learned this about Angela (Hill) Eury, we suddenly understood why she was so tight with Tanya Davis Kekel.  In fact, the picture of Tanya that was used in the "Who's Your Daddy" scandal originally had Angela (Hill) Eury standing next to TDK.  This spanking of other people's kids was wide spread in the ntcc; and many have testified about it.  Lisa and Pam Norton and Lori Kelley all came out and confirmed much more of the abuse that took place, some of which we have not yet blogged about.

 Angela (Hill) Eury and her close friend Tanya
 Davis Kekel at Ye Olde ntcc Campground in
 Santa Fe, Missouri.  Birds of a Spanking Feather
 (allegedly), flock together. Don't they look
 sweet?  But we wouldn't want them around
 our children or any innocent youngsters. 

A former ntcc member from the early 70's said that Ashmore started the [gay] foot massage practice in Tillicum; and then Brother Ken shared his testimony of how Ashmore protected two known homosexual predators while trying desperately to force Bro. Ken out of the ntcc in St. Louis.  Now Ashmore, out of nowhere, becomes friends with Donny Ridgeway?  You can believe that it's all coincidence if you want.  But I think it's naive and gullible for people to jump right on board the JRA train without doing their homework.

(Jhn 2:24-25 KJV) (24) But Jesus did not commit himself unto them, because he knew all [men], (25) And needed not that any should testify of man: for he knew what was in man. here

If Christ took care and didn't jump on any man's band wagon, we should learn from His example.  Be a fruit inspector.

(Mat 7:20 KJV) (20) Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.  here

The Proverbs of R-Dub: Pearls of Wisdom from the Flounder

An RWD Calendar We Found in Cyber Space

While going through an old box of junk I recently discovered a whole treasure trove of notes that I took and later typed out after a conference in the 90's.  As I read through the notes I had taken, it began to reinforce the facts that I've learned since leaving the ntcc. There are many Davis-isms that were spewed out that year from behind the pulpit.  Some of the stuff was just plain stupid; while some might of worked,  if it were practiced by Davis before he pitchforked it onto others. In this display of Cult Leadership 101 you will find hypocrisy at its highest point, double standards flowing from the mouth of the ntcc's chief hypocrite. Without being too long winded we will try to compare the Dubster's teachings with the bible and contrast them to the way he lived his life contrary to his own teachings (hypocrisy).  For those of you that are still in the ntcc, please ask yourself the question, "Has God changed?  Or was Davis a fraud all along?" The way Davis insulted everyone's intelligence with man-made rules and dictated the way of life that he expected others to live by, while he lived contrary, is a testament that contradicts and twists what we know and have learned in our own studies of the bible.

The topic of this particular conference was Servicemen's Homes and came out of a book that Davis supposedly wrote on the topic.  The NTCCSH Book is very practical and will yield desired results. What is a Servicemen's Home?  It is a vehicle used by Gawd to bring about the salvation (and tithes) of multitudes of precious Servicemen.  Proven a $ Fruitful$$$ and important part of our outreach.  "It has been instrumental in the success of the bible college and organization."  Monday night Olson was the speaker, but he was basically blurting out Davis' own material on the subject; (that is if Davis actually wrote the NTCCSH Book - keep in mind that Davis often plagiarized others without giving them credit).  Davis blathered on about the same stuff on Tuesday morning and night, Wednesday morning and night and Thursday morning and night.   Much of what was said reinforces my reasons for blogging against Davis, his cult and the people he selected to run it after he allegedly died.

The Proverbs of R-Dub:

1.  It was shared that Olson was reached in a Servicemen's Home in the Philippines when his life was going in the 'wrong direction'.  Servicemen are motivated by everything that is contrary to God.

Olson is the Chief enabler in the ntcc and has been responsible for running victims off for reporting ntcc ministers allegedly involved in molesting children while Olson was harboring the alleged pedophiles in the ntcc.  If he was going in the wrong direction before entering ntcc, Olson would have done God a great service if he would of kept heading that way instead of joining the ntcc.  Servicemen are not motivated by everything that is contrary to God as they claimed.  How is defending your country and it's way of life contrary to God?  Servicemen are the very reason we have freedom to worship God in this country.  If it were not for Servicemen, people like Davis would have to go door to door in civilian communities to get a few abused individuals to come to his cult.

2.  Servicemen should be able to participate in questions and answers.

This claim made us laugh when we saw it.  Just ask your local Servicemen's Home Director anything. We all know how approachable and patient they can be. **cough**  But don't dare ask the wrong question; unless you want your fields plowed; and you feel up to some public humiliation.  Try asking your Pastor about where all of the tithe money goes once it leaves your wallet and see what a loving atmosphere a Servicemen's Home can really be.  Try slapping him on the back and calling him by his first name and see how quickly the Servicemen's Home becomes a nasty place.

3.  Everything that goes on in a Servicemen's Home should be to strengthen spiritually the serviceman.

Seriously?  Like foot massages?  Like trips to the bathhouses in Korea?  I remember a long time preacher came to Olson and asked him about Broadnax being effeminate and talking about inappropriate sexual stuff all of the time; and Olson told the minister that Broadnax was responsible for sending 23 students to bible school.  In other words Olson shut that long time preacher down and defended effeminate Broadnax.  So I guess there are exceptions to the rules in the Bible as long as you are 'productive' by ntcc standards; which is to say you send them tithe payers.  But here is what the bible says:  1Co 6:9  9  Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Be not deceived: neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor abusers of themselves with mankind,

 I'll tell you first hand that there was very little spirituality going on in that home. Broadnax was pulling down his pants in front of multiple brethren and asking them to feel how soft his Korean underwear was.  This is also proof that most ntcc people don't talk; they just keep stuff like this inside. There were about 6 or 7 people that witnessed this, yet I am the only one to say anything about it.  Servicemen's Homes were a very bad idea; because they housed a bunch of single GI's that were forced into celibacy and forbidden to talk to members of the opposite sex.  On top of that, many of the Directors or 'Pastors' would be just like Davis and other members of the General Board in that they required other people to be in a monogamous relationship with their spouse, while those so-called 'Pastors' were perverts that were out allegedly committing adultery, spanking, molesting and raping young girls and boys or covering up for those who allegedly got caught.

4.  Olson doesn't remember playing monopoly in the home with Rev. Gaylord.  Servicemen come to the home to find Christ not in a monopoly game or a video game.  Games have not been allowed in Servicemen's Homes for the last 8 to 10 years.  "A person who has no control over his own spirit is like a city with walls broken down".  I had to stop and have a good laugh at this one.  Yes, the bible teaches that.  But who is Davis or Olson to lecture anyone on having control over their own spirit? This is what Davis was very good at.  He would take a Servicemen's Home and turn it into a mini cult compound by enforcing a bunch of rules that were nowhere to be found in the bible.  Thou shalt not play monopoly.  Thou shalt not have a good time doing anything that is non-spiritual.

5.  Gospel music is a critical aspect in a servicemen's home.  "Real" Gospel music that is inspirational can be a blessing.  This is the only kind of music that will be played in a servicemen's Home.  Every one has their own opinions, but if it doesn't conform to Gawd and the word of Gawd, don't play it.  If any music is in question, ask the board members.  Which board members should we ask?  Ashmore is gone, Blumenthal left eons ago, Jones is supposedly gone, dead Davis ran off Marshall.  They must have been listening to devil music.  What would a board member know about spiritual music anyway?  What kind of music do they play at Kekel's house while they are cleaning it for him?  He Set Me Free?  I doubt it.  The only types of music that Davis considered to be Spiritual were southern gospel, praise and black gospel. Only those three and they couldn't be too upbeat or they would be off limits also.  Now where is all this found in the bible?  Seriously.  Israel's King David said to Praise the Lord with many instruments, and symbols and with music and dance.  I doubt if David was dancing before the Lord with all of his might to southern gospel or praise music.  Again Davis has inserted his own standards into the legalistic ntcc dogma, that you bunch of brainwashed cult members are supposed to blindly follow. Ask a board member?  How stupid and ignorant can you be?

6.  Preachers at a work are not the pastor of the workers.  The next time Davis has to get involved, either the pastor of the church or the worker will be removed.  The worker is there to help.  There are no dorm prophets or dorm mothers or fathers in the bible school.  This was another failed experiment by RWD.  Preachers would be sent to certain works and they would regurgitate Davis doctrine to the other ministers, in effect jacking them up.  Ministers that never had children would be jacking up ministers with children and telling them how to raise their kids.  They sent Rev. Kocks to Augusta; and we would literally have to beat the guy up every day just to keep him from spraying Right Guard Deodorant in our faces.  If you want to put a servicemen's home in chaos, send a worker there and see what happens.  They always clash with the preachers that are already there.  They come out of bible school thinking that they are the next Ezekiel; and they all end up getting jacked up by the 'more seasoned preacher' who thinks he is the next in line to the very throne of God itself.  What a bunch of prima donnas.  And Davis often sets them at odds against each other, separately and secretly telling each of them to try and teach the other one something.  You know, God hates six things, and seven are an abomination.  Davis sowing discord among brethren this way seems to qualify as that seventh thing, the abomination:

Pro 6:16-19  16 These six [things] doth the LORD hate: yea, seven [are] an abomination unto him: 17 A proud look, a lying tongue, and hands that shed innocent blood, 18 An heart that deviseth wicked imaginations, feet that be swift in running to mischief, 19 A false witness [that] speaketh lies, and he that soweth discord among brethren. 

7.  In many places sports and other things are talked about and then prayer.  Davis is presenting a schedule to the general board for Servicemen's Homes.  There will be a Saturday PM service in every Servicemen's Home.  Preachers say they are too busy to have services on Saturday but the truth is that they are too lazy to pray for a message.  Did you hear that all you lazy preachers?  Too lazy to pray for a message so you can collect that Saturday night offering?  You will never amount to anything. And don't you dare ask for any money for anything if you don't have a Saturday night service.

8.  Going to the mall has got to be the hardest cross a man has ever bore.  What an insult to those who were actually Martyred for Christ.  This pearl of wisdom just came out of nowhere like a someone shot a 45 slug straight up in the air and some poor church schlub was standing there minding his own business and was fatally gunned down for no reason at all.  For all you Mall shoppin', church hoppin' religious nut cases, watch out, R-dub's got your number.

Maybe R-dub said that about Malls so he could stay home and molest little church girls while his so-called wife, Verna, and bossy daughter, Tanya, were at the Mall shopping.  According to Julie St. Clair, James Ross Ashmore once sent his wife Helen and daughter Lorrie out shopping while he allegedly raped a very young Julie.  Don't believe us?  Just ask Helen Ashmore or Lorrie Duran DiFrancesco.  Allegedly Helen was so shocked when she got back and noticed that something was wrong with Julie, that Helen allegedly declared "She's bleeding!"  Wouldn't that bear checking into a little bit more closely?  And really, why was Julie left alone with James Ross Ashmore?  And why were people using Julie to clean their mansions?  First of all, clean your own house.  If you own a mansion, hire a professional cleaning service. Don't use and take advantage of the brothers and sisters, using your neighbors' services without wages.  And who in their right mind uses a little girl with Cerebral Palsy, who is in constant pain and has limited mobility, to clean their mansion?!?!?  If you dorks can't see how messed up that is, I don't even want to know any of you.  What a bunch of jerks.

9.  It's not the place of the pastor to run the personal life of the members, but to get them saved. That's enough to make your oatmeal hit the wall.  Please, please, please, one of you ntcc'rs out there please explain this to me?  Am I the only one that finds this hypocritical?  I could literally write a book about this one sentence and how it contradicts everything Davis has ever done.  What a two faced, double standard, forked tongued hypocrite.  Anyone with one percent of their brain working knows this statement is wrong; because Davis constantly ran everyone else's lives as if he were the grand Pimp-Daddy of all time!

10.  It is not the pastor's place to tell a single worker that he cannot take a single sister home or that he needs a chaperon.  There are reasons for bible school rules and those reasons are between Davis and Gawd.  You got your waders on?  It's getting mighty deep in here.  We are going to have to shovel our way back to reality with this one.  Of course if a single worker is sent to a work, and there is a single woman at that work, He gets priority.  I've seen it too many times.  Rule 10 often violates rule 9, because the single brothers in the home are definitely not allowed the same latitude with sisters as the bible school students are.  If only I was a licensed and brainwashed minister.  Not only would I have been able to date Ange back in 1990 when we were both 25 years younger, but I could have taken her home with me.  What?  Are you kidding me?  Oh the hypocrisy.  It's just killing me. Please tell me I'm not alone.

11.  A worker without a car is about as worthless as a saddle without a horse.  So go work that insulation job at 10 bucks an hour so you can make all the services and attend all the ntcc functions and buy yourself that oil puking junker that you have always wanted, you loser.  Meanwhile Davis drives around in his Brand New Cadillac that you purchased for him every year along with you purchasing all the other board members' vehicles, including those expensive Recreational Vehicles that you paid them to take their 30 days paid vacation in while still giving them your tithes and offerings and all while you got to drive around in a 1977 rusted-out Volkswagen Rabbit.  Think about it folks.  You've been had.  You've been buying all their vehicles and paying them to take 30 days paid vacation while they drive around in the lovely new Recreational Vehicles you bought for them so they could drop by and jack you up on their way to Hawaii, or Miami, or Germany, (all on your dime, of course.)

12.  Alcoholic beverages and chewing gum are in the same category.  Yeah, we know that chewing gum takes quite a few lives every year, just like alcohol.  This is a proverb of R-dub and can not be traced to any verse in the bible we know about, but the next time you see a cow chewing it's cud and you ask him about the look of consternation on it's face, you'll understand.

13.  A worker without a car is like a millstone around the pastor's neck.   A worker with a car can also be a millstone around the pastor's neck; and a Pastor with or without a car can be a millstone around the worker's neck.  Don't blame it on the car.  That worker is not there to run a shuttle service for you.  Jesus must have had a pretty strong neck; because He must of had twelve millstones around his neck (according to Davis), as they walked everywhere they went back in those days.  What about a worker without a cell phone, or a worker without wing-tipped shoes?  Could you picture Jesus telling someone they could not follow Him, except they had a donkey?  Get real.

14.  Fellowship, fellowship, fellowship, should not consist of children but only adults.  Children should not be present, period.  Children infringe on fellowship of adults. Servicemen's Homes were not established as Nurseries but for single GI's.  Having a family in the servicemen's home and church constitutes numerous problems.  Also it is not a good atmosphere for children.  The Executive Board has decided that a Servicemen's home is not a place for children.  It also takes a room that could be utilized for a GI.  Not everyone who comes to a Servicemen's Home is saved.  There are people in this world that rape children. There are kids that are raised in Servicemen's Homes that are no longer with us today, but they are dopers and pushers.  

Where do we begin?  Just ask Ralph St. Clair about allegedly raping his own daughter in the Serviemen's Home. Sorry, maybe you should ask Joan St. Clair, his alleged widow, how well that experiment worked for them.  It seems to me like there were many more rapists inside of the ntcc than were visiting.  Why would Davis even go there? Was he perhaps speaking from experience?  So get your vasectomies if you desire the office of a Servicemen's Director, because there is something about a man who is consecrated and that will sacrifice having a family to give themselves to a servicemen's work.  Can anyone please show me where any of this is in the bible?  This doctrine of Davis is ridiculous and yet sinister; because countless couples went childless to appease Davis, who adopted what may have been his own illegitimate daughter, Tanya.  The only reported problem with children in a Servicemen's Home can be traced to the 'Pastor' and 'father' of the child; the man who allegedly molested, raped or pimped out the child to others for a few bucks. The other reported problem with children involves the sick founder of the ntcc who has been reported by numerous women that were allegedly violated by Davis when they were children.  Davis also placed a known cross dressing homosexual over children in the day school and sent effeminate preachers to pastor Servicemen's Homes.

15.  When a train begins to gain momentum the railroad crossing is a bad place to be.  J.H. Olson
You might need a revelation to know where he's coming from on this one.  The train is Davis and the Campground is the railroad crossing?  Maybe not, but it sounds like someone is going to get raked over the coals.

16.  Without a pleasing personality your tongue is as worthless as a leather thong.  Really, a leather thong?  I wonder what was going through Davis' mind when he came up with that gem.  Seems pretty weird, that he would actually say that in public.  But then again, He is Davis, and he can do anything; and you better not question him either!  Ya hear?  It's between him and Gawd; I guess.

17.  After developing a pleasing personality you have to dress it up.  Put a suit and tie on that snake.  Dress that serpent up really good in a white shirt and wingtips so his tongue can tickle you; and you won't know it's a snake.

18.  The preacher is to be at the front door of his church 30 minutes prior to each service.  Make sure you bring some breath mints with you so you don't knock your 7 members off of their feet when you greet them with the garlic breath from tonight's dinner of garlic infused ramen noodles and garlic laced meat by-products; otherwise known in the ntcc as "preachers' tube steak" (hotdogs).

19.  Some people stand around during conference like someone stole their cow.  Maybe that's what they feel like after sitting through 3 hours of teaching like we just typed in this blog post.  I'm surprised that no one ever reached in their straw basket and knocked R-dub upside the head with a tomato after carrying on like he does during a conference.

20.  The greatest wisdom is knowing when to keep your mouth shut.  Too bad davis didn't follow his own advice.  To which we say, "No comment."

Ralph St. Clair Dies with Little Fanfare (Allegedly)

ntcc's future District Overseer and former Tillicum Servicemen's Home Director, Ralph St. Clair allegedly "passes on" leaving his wife Joan to fend for herself, no thanks to the ntcc leaders like Mike Kekel.  And don't blame Julie or expect her or John St. Clair to pick up the tab. And don't be duped into picking up the tab for kekel.  If he is your leader, follow his example and do nothing.  All will be explained below in this blog post.
Feb. 12, 1950 ~ Feb. 21, 2015

We just learned through Julie that her so-called 'father', Ralph St. Clair died on February 21, 2015 at 12:45 AM. He reportedly had a stroke while gardening with and for his wife, Joan, and died a few days later after suffering in a V.A. hospital.  Ralph St. Clair was also known as Ralph SINclair, the nickname he was given by R.W. Davis - the allegedly 'highly educated' founder of the ntcc.  The death of Davis garnered a funeral ceremony called a "Celebration of Life" and "Promotion" by his daughter, Tanya Maxamillia Reynolds Davis Kekel and others. But that is not the case with Ralph St. Clair. We learned his wife Joan is trying to collect money for a cremation - the cheapest form of disposing of remains.  We were also told there would be no funeral, since Joan could not afford one. Oddly, we could not find any evidence that Ralph died.  Julie told us she was notified by police and also discussed Ralph's death with her Grandmother on her mother's side.  She said Joan was trying to get money from that wealthy relative.  We also received verification from another source, that we cannot reveal, that Ralph St. Clair had passed away.  Most people that die, in the ntcc, or anywhere, have an obituary.  There is usually some type of paper trail which might include a funeral service notice from a funeral home, something in the local newspaper, a Coroner's report or even the Hospital's acknowledgement that the person actually died, but after calling the county coroner's office in Pierce and King Counties, the V.A. hospital and the Washington Department of Health Decedent Division, we found nothing.  None of those agencies could confirm St. Clair's death.  That is odd.  The King County Coroner's Office was helpful in educating us on the process that takes place when someone dies.  It is possible for someone to pass away and not leave any paper trail, but that should not be the case when someone dies in a hospital.  In a hospital the attending physician is required to complete a death certificate with time of death and the physician's signature.  In the state of Washington, a death certificate can be ordered for $31.50; but it might take weeks to obtain.  Because we have no evidence of his death, and the V.A. Hospital told us he did not die in any of their hospitals, we have to use the word 'allegedly', just in case this turns out to be some sort of a scam.

With three state cases pending against him (according to Julie), ntcc's Ralph St. Clair won't need to worry since he allegedly "passed on", much like R. W. Davis supposedly did last March.

First of all, we believe that Julie was told the things she shared with us surrounding Ralph's passing on; and we believe our other source who said that Ralph had passed on. But having said that, there are many unanswered questions concerning this topic.  The testimony on this blog of Julie having been repeatedly beaten and raped by her father Ralph, and how that Joan and Ralph St. Clair allegedly orchestrated other sexually perverted individuals to have sex with her while she was a child, was very damaging to the ntcc, its founder R.W. Davis, Kekel, Ashmore and others who, allegedly, were allowed to violate Julie when she was just a child.  In fact, Julie says, three state cases were pending against Ralph St. Clair regarding abuse.   Perhaps those cases and the other pressure on ntcc influenced this situation with St. Clair's alleged death.  Reportedly Kekel was going to make Ralph St. Clair a District Overseer once those three pending court cases were over.  We learned of this from Julie who told us "My grandma asked kekel why they didn't have higher position since joan and ralph had been around as long as him" and "Once the cases were over kekel was going to make him a district overseer".  We asked if Julie was joking, but she said "Nope that was the plan".  Now that is bizarre -- to (plan to) make a man accused of raping his daughter the District Overseer.

Tanya Maxamillia Reynolds Davis Kekel and her deceased 'dad' Rodger Wilson Davis.  When Davis allegedly died, Tanya Tweeted about it saying, "My darling daddy is now safe in the arms of Jesus free, strong and whole."  That's odd. Why did she say "free"?  Was he in danger of going to prison?  The ntcc made a big deal about holding a "Celebration of Life" service for Davis.  But that's not the case for Ralph St. Clair. Hmmn. That's odd indeed.

But despite Kekel's alleged nod of approval and plans to promote St. Clair to District Overseer, poor ole Ralph didn't deserve a "Celebration of Life" or even a single tweet from the Twittershpere or any type of remembrance or official mention on the ntcc blogs or websites?  Wow and wow. Remember, after all, Ralph did, allegedly, provide quite a service to the ntcc higher ups.  You would think someone would mention him on Facebook or Twitter as was the case for Davis, Ramirez, Hasty and others that have passed away.   As for Joan's Facebook page, she hasn't mentioned anything, nor has anyone offered condolences.  Her Facebook page hasn't got any likes or comments since before Julie's testimony of being abused was published.  People used to like her posts and many commented, but after the dark truth was made public, people didn't seem to want anything to do with her.  Apparently, neither does Kekel want anything to do with her.  According to what Julie's grandmother told her, the ntcc told Joan she had until Tuesday to get out of the Tillicum house.  Since Ralph allegedly died on Feb. 21st at 12:45 in the morning, that left only three days for Joan to put it together. (as the ntcc likes to say.  Julie shared: "she [Joan] must attend graham church and she must pay move in cost [deposit] and rent and she can move in a graham house".  Wow, what  a privilege... NOT.  For an organization whose CEO owns  a quarter of a million dollar car that sits in a garage most of the time, and an organization that calls itself a Christian church, the ntcc is showing zero Christian charity.  Julie also said "Kekel thinks I should use the money I get to give to her to pay to live in graham since I work in help org".  But Joan St. Clair claims she has no daughter. Why should she pay?  Also, since the ntcc teaches that anyone who leaves ntcc is leaving God, they certainly don't think of the St. Clair's children, Julie and John, as "believing" Christians.  So that means NTCC should not expect them to care for the widow as it is written in the bible [read more].  Instead, the church should step up.  But we won't see that from the ntcc; because, as Julie told us, "Kekel told joan that money is only for pastors and board members so she can go get a job".  Kekel didn't even want to do a free funeral for St. Clair; which is odd since he allegedly planned on promoting him to District Overseer.  But Julie said, "No funeral joan can't afford it she was collecting money to cremate." I thought it was ironic to find this post on Joan St. Clair's Facebook page:  "Yo Mama is so fat when she got cremated all the flights in Europe got canceled!"  Very ironic.  So listen, folks. Hold onto your wallets.  Kekel is not willing to part with even one thin dime or any of his time to help Joan St. Clair, and since he is your leader, neither should you.

Playing Church - Caution NTCC Church Meeting

 - May "Trigger" or Bring Up BAD Memories -

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Above Video:  NTCC Minister Ralph St. Clair (hiding behind a NTCC Pulpit) is accused of raping his daughter; but before the three pending cases can go to court, Ralph, allegedly "passes on".  Is it judgment?  Is it a farce? Why is ntcc so quiet about his "passing on"?  Why is ntcc refusing to help his alleged widow, Joan St. Clair?

What is really going on in your ntcc?

It's alarming that people recognize the truth but they continue to follow Kekel.  We have also recently heard rumors that the Jones (the Overseer and his wife) are no longer in the organization.  I know that Jeff  told me that he had seen Jone's and Hunt's wives together on more than one occasion recently in the Ft. Benning Commissary. Perhaps the ntcc is falling apart, but as long as they still have people that are willing to follow them without asking questions, they will continue to destroy lives.  At any rate, don't expect any transparency from the ntcc.  Transparency and honesty go hand in hand.  If you are in the ntcc and find yourself bewildered at having to learn this on an X-er blog, don't blame us or call us the devil. There is much more perversion in your ntcc than there is in the majority of the lives of the people who have left.  The ntcc leaders just like to hide their sins behind the eyewash of whatever vestige of  'holiness' still remains.

Bro Ken Exposes Sexual Predators Whom NTCC Hid and Helped (Allegedly)

Brother Kenneth MacPherson

After speaking to Brother Ken MacPherson over the phone we learned a great deal. Bro Ken was very down to earth and quickly endeared himself to us as a very likable guy, and was able to share more details of his situation directly with Ange and I over the phone. Some of the things that this brother went through were horrifying beyond belief. When you think you've heard it all, you find out there are more souls who have suffered unimaginable things and as usual their voices are ignored by the crooked and corrupt leaders of the ntcc.

With his permission we are going to share some more of what Bro Ken shared with us; but we are going to leave out the graphic details.  In Ken's first letter he summed up the best that he could, what he went through while attending the church and NTCC bible school.  Ken has had a stroke and it's hard for him to write.  He often shares written words of encouragement at his church, but is helped by the secretary who helps transcribe his words into writing.  Sharing things this personal in nature is something that he had to do without any help from anyone.  We think Brother Ken did an awesome job of sharing his original thoughts; but in our phone conversation he connected many of the dots, clarified some things, and introduced some very interesting facts.

Rev. John Rodrigues Saves Ken's Life:
Bro Ken was reached originally in a servicemen's home down in Ft. Polk, Louisiana.  Rev. John Rodrigues was the pastor down there in the late 70's.  Rev. Rodrigues is probably the only board member that I have any respect for in the ntcc.  I'm not sure he is included in the ntcc's future plans and is not listed as a current board member; but he has served on the board in the past.  I've spent a minimal amount of time with the Rodrigueses; and they were not cut from the same cloth that many of the ntcc preachers were.  Back in those days the brothers from the home used to go out and sing songs with guitars and tambourines and maracas while fellow-shipping, soul-winning and inviting others to church.  During one of these ntcc soul-winning sessions, Bro Ken was talking to a man and got separated from the rest of the brothers and was attacked.  He woke up in a bathtub hours later and realized what had happened.  He had been sexually assaulted and his description of what had happened was so horrific, that we aren't going to share the details. When he realized what had happened, Bro Ken slit his wrist but wasn't bleeding out fast enough; so he found a rope and was going to hang himself when Rev. Rodrigues found him.  Bro Ken shared that Rev. Rodrigues later told him that he cut service short that evening and asked the members to pray while he went out looking for Brother Ken.  He found him just in time to tell him that God loves him and he saved the brother's life that night.  Rev. Rodrigues didn't say, You are a filthy homosexual and that's why this happened to you, like some in ntcc did.  Instead, Rev. John Rodrigues did what a true Christian would do, and that was to console the brother.  Later on Brother Ken found out who the man was who assaulted him; and at his Court Martial the man confessed that there were 10 people who were involved in assaulting him!

Davis Plays The Blame Game:
Brother Ken was in the Army and was with the CID (Criminal Investigation Department).  When Davis found out the details of Ken's rape and what had happened afterward, he immediately flew down to insert himself into the situation in a way that is so despicable, and, sadly, so typical of Rodger Davis - with no compassion or human decency.  Here's what happened.  Rev. Rodrigues thought Brother Ken should go to the hospital and get stitches; but Davis did not want any attention drawn to the Servicemen's Home and didn't want anyone from post taking a closer look.  So what did Davis do?  Davis accused the brother of spying on the organization, grabbing Ken's elbow, squeezing it very hard, and demanding of him, "Are you spying on us?" - remember, Ken worked for the Army's CID, usually investigating people regarding illegal drugs.  Ken stated that he pushed Davis' hand off of him and said, "Not unless you are selling drugs around here."  What kind of nut attacks a rape victim and accuses him of spying on the church?  But that is what demonic davis did - trying to blame a victim of rape.

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Victim Blaming:
Asking questions in order to place blame on the victim for whatever happened to them.
What questions are victims being asked in the NTCC by its Leaders?  This Applies to both men and women.  Davis and others will blame victims so that they live with guilt and shame.
 Are you spying on us? 

"This is I" Beware There Is NO CONFIDENTIALITY
Later, after Ken got out of the military, he ended up going to St. Louis where he lived in the ntcc dorms and went to bible school under R.W. Davis.  This part of Brother Ken's testimony is filled with NTCC darkness and was not easy for him to share. The trouble started after writing what Ken calls a psychology paper, otherwise known as the "This is I" paper, in which Ken and others were instructed to write down their sins and past mistakes.  Our opinion is that Davis assigned this paper so that he could use it to his advantage and have ammunition against people to exploit them.  As so often is the case in the ntcc, there is no such thing as confidentiality like what is found in a normal healthy church. Instead,  Davis frequently broke the law and disregarded ministerial ethics by outing people for whatever they had written in those papers, or by telling everyone what they had shared with him in confidence.  Ken wrote in his paper that he loved a woman named Susan and had a child with her.  Later he spoke with Davis about her attending church; but Davis, The Match-Making-Manipulator, would not allow this woman an opportunity to become a Christian or allow her in "his" church.  If you ever wonder why there are so many homosexuals in the ntcc, you are about to find out why in this post.

(Homo)sexual Predators Protected and Hidden By Your NTCC
Bro Ken shared that in St. Louis, he was raped by Johnny Jordan in the dorm, was sexually attacked by Dave Peters, and was threatened with hell and homosexuality by Harold Batson.  Johnny Jordan attacked Ken while Jordan was hopped up on drugs and overpowered Ken.  Davis protected Johnny Jordan and match-made him with a very young Pam Norton.  Davis also tried to match-make Bro. Ken with a Hispanic woman, but that didn't work out.  Because in this case Ken stood up to the powerful cult leaders.  We're not saying that he didn't suffer a horrible cult experience, but on many occasions he actually stood up to the likes of Davis (by knocking his hand off his elbow), Ashmore (by refusing to shake his hand EVER), and Olson (which we will describe later on in this post). Many of us were not so strong.  But even a strong personality, when coupled with a sincere desire to serve God, and indoctrinated with the false teachings of davis, could be overcome.

Ken left the organization for a time but then came back because there were people that he cared about in the ntcc.  When he came back, he was in St. Louis; and Davis allowed him to attend Bible School.  If Davis had thought that he was a homosexual, davis wouldn't have let Ken back into the bible school.  This time around Ashmore was in authority over the bible school; and Ken had more troubles ahead of him. Ashmore seemed to be right in the middle of a whole lot of homosexual corruption but did nothing to stop it or prevent it from happening to others.  But you have to go back even further in time to see how homosexuality in the ntcc seemed to be like a cloud that followed Ashmore around everywhere he went.

Ashmore Allegedly Loves the Brothers a Little Bit TOo Much...
We heard that Donald Hummel and Perry Broadnax, who both made homosexual advances towards the brothers, were both with Ashmore in the early days of his so-called 'ministry'.  One man, whom we will leave anonymous for now, was in the original home where Ashmore was the pastor; and that anonymous man told us that Ashmore started the foot massage tradition that was later on imitated by other homosexual/bisexual ntcc Servicemen's Home directors.  While Ashmore was teaching the bible in the living room of the servicemen's home, with the bible in his lap, Ashmore would have certain brethren massage his feet. The guy who shared this with us asked us not to publish his name on the blogs; but he also said if ever needed, he would testify in a court of law against the ntcc.  My wife and I and another person were on a conference call with this man who kept sharing how he thought it was so weird for Ashmore to be getting foot massages from the brothers, and how it was weird for him to keep the bible on his lap like that.   Ashmore is also known in ntcc for his effeminate John Malkovich sounding voice and feminine mannerisms such as delicately folding his hands over at the wrists and crossing his legs in the way that is more often seen among women than men.

smAshmore:  Bashing The Brethren
Also in St. Louis, while Michael Rudy was allegedly cross-dressing as a woman and 'teaching' young children in the ntcc day school, disciplining them by having them lower their panties while he spanked them, we find that Ashmore himself was involved in something that stinks to high heaven.  After Johnny Jordan had already attacked and sexually assaulted Brother Ken, and Davis did nothing to correct Jordan or report Johnny to authorities, Johnny got promoted by Davis to work in the ntcc church office and to be married to 16 year old Pam Norton. And Ashmore allowed two other homosexuals to make advances toward Ken without any consequences against these men.  These two perverted individuals are David Peters and Harold Batson, who got a free pass from Ashmore.

Victim Blaming Becomes Bashing
Meanwhile smAshmore turned up the pressure on Brother Ken by bashing him publicly from the pulpit and lectern, finding fault with everything Ken did: Ken's shoes were never shiny enough; he needed a haircut; but when he got one he was still wrong; because then he didn't have sideburns; Ken's notes were never good enough; Ashmore would throw them back at Ken, the pages flying everywhere while Ashmore would say, "That's not what I said."; Ken's  homework assignments were also ripped up in front of other bible school students by bAshmore and on and on and on.  We've heard allegations of smAshmore targeting Moreno in a similar fashion and with a similar purpose - to run him off or get him out of the ntcc.

Families - Stay Away!  Impenitent Homos - You Are Welcome in NTCC
Why was Ashmore trying so hard to get rid of Ken?  Why was Ashmore harboring homosexual predators like Harold Batson and Dave Peters; who were all reported by Ken directly to Ashmore?  Normally people in ntcc attend only one of the ntcc chapels at a time.  Yet Ashmore allowed both Batson and Peters to attend both the ntcc Forest Ave. and Holly Hills churches.  That was unheard of in the ntcc.  Was Ashmore seeking alone time with these homosexuals? Meanwhile, all Ken wanted was for the woman he loved, Susan, and his child to be accepted by the church.  She wanted to come to church at first; but ntcc wouldn't allow it.  Does this sound familiar to anyone? Ken did all the right things.  He reported the sexual advances of Dave Peters to Ashmore; but bAshmore blamed Ken.  And even when Dave Peters started writing perverse letters to Ken, smAshmore kicked Ken out of the office when confronted with the truth.  Are these the actions of a Pastor that loves God and members of the church?  Is this normal behavior?  bAshmore blamed Ken and told him that it was his fault.  Do you wonder why innocent victims live in constant guilt and shame?

Ashmore Lied To Davis.  But Davis Believed Ken
If you look at the dynamics of what went on here, it's not hard to take an educated guess.  Harold Batson also made sexual advances and threats towards Ken.  Batson said he (Batson) was leading people to hell and that he wanted to take people to the deepest part of hell.  Ken did what he was supposed to do and reported Batson to Ashmore; but smAshmore told Ken, "I wish you would just leave."  We know that thinking for yourself is completely against the ntcc rules;  but you have to wonder why Ashmore would move these perverts around and protect them.  This is how bad it got:  When Davis caught wind of what was going on, he confronted Ashmore about what Ken had told him; and Ashmore lied to Davis, denying what Ken had told him.  But Davis knew better.  Davis believed Ken was telling the truth about Batson leading people to hell and didn't believe Ashmore. Davis even told Ashmore this:  "Bro. MacPherson has never lied to me."  Then Davis got Batson down to the office and Batson confirmed that he had indeed told Ken that Batson was leading people to hell and that Batson was a homosexual.  As a result Batson got kicked out of the church by Davis, who announced that night in church that Batson was a homosexual who was leading people to hell.

Now you have to break ntcc rules again and think and wonder:  Why was Ashmore trying to protect these perverts? Did Davis suspect that Ashmore was involved with Batson and Peters?  It didn't take Ashmore very long to leave the ntcc after Davis was reported as dead.  Perhaps Davis gave Kekel the lowdown on James Ross Ashmore; and JRA was given an ultimatum by Kekel.  Of course that's all supposition; but if you connect the dots between Ashmore, Hummel, Broadnax, Rudy, Batson and Peters, you would have to be naive and gullible to think that nothing was happening between them.  The proverb about Birds of A Feather Flock Together comes to mind.

We also know that people will vehemently disagree and try to excuse these poor ntcc leaders.  Well guess what?  How many times did Davis openly from behind the pulpit accuse people of being homosexuals?  He would preach, "If so and so was alone at a sister's house and didn't have sex with her, he must be a homosexual."  Sound familiar?  You know you have heard it yourself.  Maybe there's a reason why Davis was so homophobic.  He certainly didn't mind being around the alleged bi-sexual rapist Johnny Jordan, though; did he?  No, Davis made that rape of 14 year old Lisa Norton possible by match-making Jordan with Pam, Lisa's 16 year old sister.  And why?  Allegedly Davis was slipping in Jordan's front door while Johnny was at work for ntcc; during this time alone with Jordan's teen wife, Pam, Davis would allegedly molest Pam and then pay her hush money.  She told us she had so much money at times she would have more than Johnny brought home from work.  She also said that others sisters used to wonder how she could afford the nice things she had.  Wouldn't they have been shocked to find out!

Olson is the ntcc Hype Man Building Up The Illusion
What a sick bunch of deviants is running the ntcc.  And they all cover for one another.  Just look at how Olson would indoctrinate people to blindly accept whatever Davis said as if it were gospel. Olson would blather on, saying, "If Pastor Davis says the sky is green, the sky IS green!"  Ken once wrote a letter to Olson telling him:

"If you think the sky is green, just because Davis says the sky is green, You need to get saved.  You are reading a different bible than I am."  Ken let Olson know the simple truth about what is not in the bible. 

We all heard Olson tell that green-sky lie on numerous occasions.  Oh brother!    What a load of nonsense designed to blind people and get them to believe a lie.

In The NTCC The Sky is Green if RWD says so.
But that's a lie.  It is cult indoctrination to get you to accept the pastor's word AS IF it were the gospel truth.
Don't be deceived.

Davis Did Have A TV in His House - While He Preached Against TV
Talking to Ken, he revealed other secrets that were verified by a second witness. We heard from Julie St. Clair that Davis had a TV in his house.  She saw it and got abused for mentioning it to her 'parents' Ralph and Joan. Others came on the blog and said, I've cleaned Davis' house and never saw a TV.  Well, maybe they were speaking about one of Davis' other houses, since he has owned so many.  All we know is what Julie shared and what Ken shared with us that Davis had him come over to his house one time; and Ken followed the dog into the house and saw a TV.  Davis tried to make an excuse for it and told Ken that  TVs were not allowed in the churches or Servicemen's Homes because ministers didn't need to spend their time watching TV, but rather reading and praying and soul winning.  Davis went on to say that he would keep people informed as to what was going on in the world.  What a load of baloney.  Davis is quite simply a HYPOCRITE who says one thing but does another.

"She's Mine! Stay Away!" Teenie Bopper Tanya is Owned by Mike Kekel
(He said.)
Also there was some confusion as to how old Tanya actually was when she started dating Mike. Her age was originally stated as 12 or 13 and then that changed to 15 or 16.  Ken said that Kekel had a picture of Tanya that he carried around in his wallet and he showed it to him in 1979, and told him and other brothers not to talk to her because she was going to marry him.  This tells you that Tanya was somewhere around 14 years old when Kekel was claiming her as his own; and that is only if she is telling the truth about her age.  Do you think it would be beyond Tanya Kekel to lie about her age?  Who's going to verify it?  Tanya is known and proven to be a liar by the online form that allegedly she filled out to find info on her Filipino birth mother.  Ken said Tanya Davis (now kekel) looked like she was about 11 or 12 years old in the picture that Mike showed him.  I'm sure Mike wouldn't want the world to know that he was dating and planning to marry to a pre-teen, calling her "mine", when he is nine years older than she is.  Yuck.  What a perv!

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Let's play count the Lies.  How many lies can you count?  Tanya's Maiden Name Kekel? No. Her maiden adopted name was davis. Tanya's religion Unknown?  Her occupation Housewife?  Occupation of her Birth mother Ambassador? It begs the question, When was she really born?

Our opinion is that the kekels are liars, people.  Look at their mansions and their richer than rich lifestyles.  Mike didn't obtain all that wealth through investments.  If he tells you that, he'll tell you anything.  If you believe that, you'll believe anything.   But we don't trust them.  Ken also said that he never once trusted Ashmore; and so Ken refused to shake Ashmore's hand the entire time Ken was in the ntcc.

There were a number of other things that really impressed us about Bro Ken as we talked on the phone.  He is a Christian; he was a pastor; he still ministers through his words of encouragement writings; and he has a very good heart.  He told us that in spite of what Johnny did to him, he forgives Jordan and says that Johnny needed help but never got it.  Johnny had shared with Ken some of the hell Jordan had gone through; but Jordan never received any help, especially in the ntcc.  It takes quite a heart to forgive someone that has attacked you; and yet Ken has definitely done that.  Brother Ken also has a son that he has raised and protected; and Ken is a well respected leader in his church.  He maintained great integrity in the face of hatred and stood for what was right while so-called ntcc leaders went about to destroy him in order to cover their own sin and to present a facade of holiness Christianity to the world.  Ken went through it all and suffered all the things a victim of severe abuse has suffered but has survived it all with dignity and honor.

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"This is i" - Bro-Ken Survives Rape at the NTCC Servicemen's Home and Seminary St. Louis formerly NTCG Midwestern Bible Institute

Today we received an e-mail from a Former licensed and Ordained minister of 30 years, who was forwarding the story of Bro. Ken who was a friend of this minister back in the early 80's.  Whether you pronounce that Brother Ken or BroKen, both are correct. Ken MacPherson endured rape and assault at the hands of three individuals listed by name. He was further traumatized and demonized by the very individuals who should have helped him, namely, James Ross Ashmore and Rodger Wilson Davis.  Bro-Ken feels all this was the result of a psychology paper assigned in the NTCC which, during the nineties, was called the "This Is I" paper.  In it the students were supposed to list their sins and life before coming to Christ for salvation. I never understood why a Christian would demand that from another Christian.  The blood of Christ cleanses us from all sin; and God removes our transgressions as far as the East is from the West; He casts all our sins into the depths of the sea. 1 John 1:7 Psalm 103:12 Micah 7:19 here

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It is our opinion that Davis and other NTCC members exploited this information from these papers to harm folks.  Here, in his own words, and with his permission is Bro-Ken's story.  He wants people to know that his psychology paper was used to target him.

This is a hard thing for me to do and say but twice by 1982 I got raped in NTCC one at the service men's home while out soul winning and the other in the dorm on Eiller St, Davis kept telling me it was my fault, I deserved it, He told me the homosexuals are coming after me because I was living in sin.

 and   the the reason he moved me from Forest Ave, to Eiller St. I met Susan she was local neighbor around the church  and in 81 we had a son David, Davis knew this from the psychology paper  we wrote about our self's. He would not let her join the church Davis told me in the office he wanted me to go to Tacoma and Leave St. Louis behind but I could not have anything thing more to do with Susan, I said no He then said I guess I will tell every one you left because you wanted to be a Homosexual I said  whatever, I then said to him even though you know it is not the truth, he told me I made the decision not him, and then said that he could not have all the brothers finding local whores to sleep with.

In my heart I blame myself for so much   you have no idea. I let an un Godly man try and destroy me. make me believe that I was something I was not, and then only to find out from the blogs that my attacker got to rape one of the sisters it hurts so bad inside, I know its my fault, Davis did nothing to stop it.

Rape survivors feel shame and guilt for things that are NOT THEIR FAULT. NTCC Rapists blame the victims and assassinate their characters by telling lies about them from the pulpit after kicking them out.

 Susan left my son and I in 86,Because I went back to NTCC, If I was such a homosexual, and as you know they can't be saved then why did he let me come back? because he knew the truth, It was never about homosexual, it was always about  Susan, and by the end of 87 I left for good because Ashmore and I could not get along,

 I called him, Ashmore, a pervert and that he was protecting them, and unless you have been raped or molested, Julie St. Claire is spot on when it comes to the perverts, you don't have to be touched yet, you know you just know something is going to happen just the way they look at you or touch you. And for Lisa I wish Davis had put Johnny out, the way he did me, or we had the laws back then like we have now, I just wish I could have done some thing.I have so much more pain and guilt after reading Don and Anges blog, hear your story and Anges call of trumpet, 

Ange says, I want to apologize to any rape and abuse survivors that I have hurt by calling them to report rape or abuse in order to prevent future victims.  Those things are not your fault.  The blame for rape lies with the rapist. The blame for abuse lies with the abuser. I apologize to anyone I have hurt by calling them to action to prevent future victims. The fact is rapists cause rapes.

but at Holly Hills there were those brothers that treated me great, I may not have been as receptive to them as I should have and for that I'm sorry, but when you go through certain things, you  have a certain amount of disconnect with people, and then there it is the people you know you are going to have a problem,

Mr.. Peters was one of them not only did he make advances and Ashmore did nothing about it but to blame me Mr. Peters started to write me letters asking for sex and again Ashmore kicked me out of the office its my fault, that's what I get for coming back,
why does it have to be the victims fault, we already live a life of shame and guilt that can never go away. 

Support Male Survivors of Abuse. They look strong, but inside may be broken. Survivors: Know that you are not alone. There are people who care about you and about what happened.  It was not your fault.  Like this photo shows on its right edge, Trauma And Dissociation, it is normal for a person who has suffered trauma to feel separated or disconnected.  That is normal and in time the survivor can heal and reconnect with those who have proven trustworthy. Give yourself time to heal and do what works for you. Take time in your healing and grieving process. You deserve love and to be happy.

 and then there was

 NTCC Founding Board
 Member James Ross
 "Ashmore called me
 a liar he told me to
 get out get out get out
 I wish you would just leave,
 so I did, right out the door.
 Davis told [Ashmore] I don't
 believe you [Ashmore]. Bro.
 Macpherson has never lied
 to me [Davis.] why now[?]"
 *Quote marks and bracketed
 [-] material added for clarity.*

Mr.. Batson it was a church night he made sex advances on me, it happened so fast I did not see that one coming, but he took it to a dark Place he told me he was leading people to Hell, I was in shock, I said to him you go after people for sex, and the what?
 he said I ask them about God once and if they say no, If Hell is what they want then I will lead them to the deepest part of it.   knowing this was going to be hard to believe, I went to Ashmores  office told him what happened, he called me a liar he told me to get out get out get out I wish you would just leave, so I did, right out the door.

then I heard brother Macpherson you don't go to church don't come back it was Davis he asked me what was going on I told him, we went in to the office he asked Ashmore he denied it, Davis said, so he did not tell you Batson was leading people to Hell Ashmore said no sir, Davis told him I don't believe you, Bro. Macpherson has never lied to me why now, Ashmore I don't know  sir. he told me go up stairs I don't need to hear this, Davis ask someone to bring Batson down, and that night Batson was put out of the church, for those of you who were wonder why he was put out. then I left in the January 88. some NTCC people will want to lie But you know he kicked Batson out.
(foot note) later on I ask Batson one time  why me,   He said because it was said of me I left in 83 because I wanted be gay. All because
one man tells a lie, and goes out of his way to make people believe  in that lie. But for the grace of God the many times I went to kill my self
and God had some one there to save me from trying to throw my self in front of the metro link train to hanging my self.     

In defense of Johnny he was one of my best friends I had, I still have a pen holder he made for me from his machine shop job he had.
we were both 5/7 and 150 pounds, but that night he was on drugs, and at the Eiller St. dorm Jonny, Dorsie, and Wells slept upstairs and I slept in the basement.  that night he wanted hang out with me while I typed my notes,  because he said he had taken something and did  not want the brothers see him acting weird, now please don't any body fool themselves, Johnny was not the only one popping pills, I got operated on twice and brothers would come to me for pain pills, but that night I don't know what he took, because on any other day I could throw him down not that night. at light out time everyone went to their  beds and he came back assaulted me.

two things I regret the most is the lose of fellowship of some great brothers and sisters some whose names I can not now remember
nor locate, and that they never knew my real story, Mark dally does know about my assault in the service men's home, because of some strokes
the other is my son David he feels he had a hard life from the time he was 10 until he left my home to be the man he is to day,
I never let him out of my sight, and had to always know the who the what the were the why  and when he would always say Dad you're the only Dad in America that acts that way, and I would always say I'm the only Dad in America that is your Father and I do it because I love you

and in the mid 2000s I did became a minister and my son and grandchildren were there I gave the church my whole testimony and I mean
everything the rapes the molestation, agreeing with Davis about the Homosexuality, NTCC, because I wanted all out in the open so nothing
could come back on me and when I got done my son and grandchildren came running up to me at the pulpit told the church this is my Dad and I love him, and at that moment in time nothing else mattered, as my son whispered in my ear if I had only known, thank you for protecting me the way you did. and the church said we love you to brother will you take the job, no secret ballet need and I said yes,
today I have step-down because of health reasons,   but  I do write Words of Encouragement for the church each week

Now you know my story because of the strokes, I did not know how to get on the blogs like Don and Ange, and I know there are people out there hate me because Davis and Ashmore tell them to and even after knowing the truth some will still not want to believe and that's ok because they will do whatever NTCC tells them to do.

But people need to know that are in NTCC when you write those psychology papers for them you just put a target on your back, Kekel and the rest of those  perverts are going to use them to choose their victims, because by those papers tell them what type of person you are and can they get away with rapping or molesting you or your children, and then their mind games begin they did nothing and you made it up.   

 Allegedly:  NTCC used the Psychology Papers  Titled
 "This Is i" to gain intimate facts about  people.
 Then the NTCC used that knowledge to  target
 those people or their kids for rape and  abuse.
 Then the NTCC blamed and ostracized the  victims.
 It's our opinion that the NTCC is wicked! 

To Clarify whose who, Ken added the following paragraph:

Dave Peters was part of Rev Jones church on Forest Ave, and went over to Holly Hills also, Harold Batson had been a student at Holly Hills under Ashmore, but Left school for some reason, he told me when he left   Ashmore liked him so he never put him out of the church, I found that to be strange and he also got to go to Forest Ave.  Which I thought was strange also how they both got to go to both churches, I could not figure that one out why.

In 86 at a low point in my life I went to Forest Ave it was late at night I was making one last plea with God before I was going to end my life, some one had called Rev. Jones a guy was on the property it was me, he came down  we talked for a while and then he asked me

to come to church, Susan would not because she was rejected before, so why now she said.  a few months later he wanted me to go back to the school, but it had to be under Ashmore, both Peters and Batson never put there hands on me until I went to Holly Hills, so for sure I know Batson was a student at one time but not sure a bout Peters, but this one thing he kept them around for some reason.

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A)  Sounds True.
B)  Sounds Cultish.
C)  I Read It.
D)  I was forced to have sex when I was only a child.
E)  I too was raped.
F)  I'm afraid to get caught commenting on this blog.
G)  Glad To Be Out of ntcc.
H)  I told ntcc church leaders but got no help.
I)   I'm Thinking Of Leaving ntcc.
J)   I am a woman.

K)  I am a man.

L)  In my opinion Ashmore is a creep.