I Have A Name Part 2

With permission we are sharing some more of Julie's amazing life. There is no commentary needed to go along with this, so we are just going to post what was shared.  To see part one of her story previously posted:

I Have A Name Part 1

Julie shares:

I joined a bowling league and I am excited about it! I told my mom about it. She says they don't think bowling alleys are bad anymore. There use to be gangs, drugs, crimes, and sex happening at these places so the borg didn't want people in such places. REALLY!!!! There is more sex and crimes going on in the borg!! The bowling alley was a little unsure of me at first. You see I have cerebral palsy. I wear braces, walk with a cane, and have limited use of my left hand. I use a lighter bowl, only one hand, and do it totally different. I make it happen though much to their surprise.

What a lot of adults that have left the borg don't understand I didn't have a life before the borg so all I knew is what the borg allowed me to know. Complete with my 4th grade education that they so graciously let me receive.** I should count my blessings.

I was supposedly healed on cerebral palsy when I was young partly and then when I was a teen idiot Ashmore prayed for me and I was told my hand grew. I actually believed that lie for a long time. I had to hide my disability because my parents were ashamed that I had no faith as well as my sin in my heart. My disability is always been there and is worse since I didn't receive medical after my father joined the borg. My mother joined first and my father came later.

Mathew 9:2 - "And, behold, they brought to him a man sick of the palsy, lying on a bed: and Jesus seeing their faith said unto the sick of the palsy; Son, be of good cheer; thy sins be forgiven thee."

Forgiven and Healed when Jesus saw the
 Faith of Those Who Brought Him

***Note -  Jesus healed the man with palsy and forgave his sin, while the NTCC did neither.  Ashmore claimed Miraculous healing by falsely claiming that Julie's hand grew; then her parents blamed their own disabled child for her lack of faith and sin instead of taking responsibility for their own lack of faith and sin.***

Mountain Mover By The Talley Trio

Oh I wanted to clear something up. I was not born in the group. I was 2 years old before my mother came in and 3 years old before my father came. So my cerebral palsy had nothing to do with the group.

I was almost a month late being born and my head had already taken birth form which made it too big to deliver. Since they didn't have the way to view the size of my head until I was coming out then it was too late. This is my understanding of my birth. This is why they don't want women waiting more than two weeks past due date. They were getting me help until the borg came into the picture. Of course I don't remember any of that it is just what was shared with me.

I was too young to remember but I was told davis said some insulting remarks (of course my parents didn't think them insulting just speaking the truth) about me when he first met me and my mother. He didn't like the fact that I was being allowed to crawl around the servicemen's home and I looked ridiculous seeing I was way too old for it. I didn't walk well yet since I was delayed. My mom explained my disability but davis didn't want to hear it. My mom said It opened her eyes to my need of healing and her need not to except from me any less. I fell a lot as a kid and I limped. I may not remember when I was real young but I do remember the ill treatment for my cerebral palsy as I got older.

When I was a kid I was told my left leg was shorter then my right. I have since found out through x-rays that it isn't shorter. My hip is actually shoved up my back and had a doctor and therapist worked on it when I was still a child it wouldn't appear short at all. It is now fused in place so there is no moving it without risk to my spine. I am not complaining I am just explaining. I went to 6 different doctors this year each one being told no information except asked to see if I had a disability or not. They all confirmed I had cerebral palsy. hmmm.

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**Abusive and child molesting parents often pull their children out of public schools to hide the abuse and make it impossible for the child to tell anyone. Who was Julie going to tell? Her teacher? (mother-fail) Her minister? (father-fail) Isolated and abused. The true life of an NTCC kid!**

To see part one of her story previously posted:

I Have A Name Part 1

I Have A Name

Psa 27:10 When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.

There Are No Orphans By The Talley Trio


This year we learned of what is, to date, the worst case of abuse in the NTCC.  A woman contacted us and has bravely and honestly shared some of the horrific things done to her while in the NTCC.  Here is her story:

I am known as the St.Clairs’ daughter or Donny Ridgeway’s ex-wife and I have something difficult to hear but important to share.

I am writing this as healing for some and understanding for others which can lead to saving and rescuing lives.

As I thought about going public with this information, one of my concerns was, who would believe me. To many people I was labeled a liar after being caught talking about sexual stuff that had happened to me. Some were told never to believe what came out of my mouth.

I will never forget having to tell people I lied about the sexual stuff and even having to go before the board and be humiliated in front of my now ex-husband. I learned to question my sanity and even feel guilty like it was my fault or a complainer. I remember going to each of the girls and having to say I lied. I felt so lost and alone like no one understood my pain. Wait, pain is that what this deep ache in my heart is attributed to ? Feeling like, Did I have a right to my pain or was I the guilty one? So confused, maybe I had caused the attention to my body.

I don’t want to at this point address all the sexual abuse from many sources but I do want to address the sexual abuse of my father.

I didn’t have a normal father/daughter relationship. Since he did sexual stuff to me I thought the most important thing was my body. I have hated my breasts for years not for the size but every time I would look at them I thought of him. I even dreamed of having them surgically removed. There were days I wish they would disappear. As the years have passed and age has changed my body I felt worse and worse about myself. My value was in my body; as I got older my value went down to me. You might ask were you bitter and angry at him? This one is hard to answer. Well first for a long time I wasn't sure who was at fault and then I was labeled a liar. I was angry but I was sure who or what made me feel this way. I was so confused with people’s reaction to everything in my life. Someone did me a favor this year and decided to ask my mother about the sexual stuff between me and father. Shocking there was some admitting to some of the stuff that happened. I had been so taught the only emotion I could have was happiness, that I was numb to all other emotions for the most part. I have went through many emotions in dealing with it all this year. I am slowly working through it. Communication with men is still difficult and avoid when possible. Hey they are moving up in my book even though it is at tortoise pace.

This year I have learned what he did was wrong and it is not my fault. I intern this year I have got help and been empower which has made me a better person, a whole woman and mother. I thank God for helping to heal me. I write today not to prove my story but to let those who have lived in silence with their sexual trauma know "YOU ARE NOT ALONE.” I have been there.

I hope that you will listen to this song completely through, taking in all the words into your heart.

Hugs, Julie ( Yes I have a name)

You're My Little Girl by Go Fish

We want to add, for the record, WE BELIEVE YOU JULIE!  Thank You for courageously sharing part of your true story.  When the abuse happened to you as a child, you were a victim.  Since then you have grown and become an Over-comer.  Now, by sharing your true story to reach out to and help others, you have become a Champion.

We have much to say about this.  For now, we want people to be aware that not only does sexual abuse of children take place in the NTCC, but the NTCC's top leaders hide the abusers, afflict the innocent victims, and endanger other children by willfully and purposely allowing known abusers to retain their ministers' licenses or positions of trust in the church.

This story, the Michael Fontenot story, and others' that have been shared under anonymity establish a clear pattern of abuse within the NTCC that is condoned and perpetrated by the New Testament Christian Churches of America, Inc.'s top leaders.

To those who have suffered, we pray for your healing.

To those who are suffering, we pray for not only your healing, but your freedom.

To those who have wronged the innocent:  Repent.

Helen Ashmore told me one time, with tears in her eyes, "Those kids, they remember." (I believed, at the time, she was speaking of her love for her son Jerry / Larry Duran; and that she hoped the love would win him back to the organization.)  For his sake, we hope not!

To the organization we now say, "Those kids, they remember."

They have grown up and now know they are not your property.  Each one of them has a name.

Also from a healed heart, Julie shares:

IS IT REALLY EVERLASTING?


I would like to address SALVATION. First I would like to share what The Word Of God has to say.


NEVER ENDING SALVATION

John 6:47 says

“Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me hath everlasting life.”

John 3:15 says

“That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have eternal life.”


NO REJECTIONS


John 6:37 says

"All that the Father giveth me shall come to me; and him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out."


NO MAN CONTROLS OUR SALVATION


Acts 4:12 says

"Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved."

SALVATION BRINGS FREEDOM NOT BONDAGE


Romans 8:15 says

"For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father."


BY GRACE ONLY


Romans 11:6 says

"And if by grace, then is it no more of works: otherwise grace is no more grace. But if it be of works, then it is no more grace: otherwise work is no more work."

Ephesians 2:8-9 says


“For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.”


SALVATION IS SIMPLE


Romans 10:9 says

"That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved."

Romans 10:13 says

“For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.”

Salvation is for you. You may say Julie it is too late. My friend were there is breath, there is always hope. God loves you!

Maybe you are still questioning grace. Well let me tell you how it was put to me. It took a while for someone to convince me that God was really real….then that He loved me and then that He died for me. One thing I couldn't understand was grace. She said, “You mean to tell me God is up there putting your name in the Lamb’s Book of Life then when you mess up He takes it out and when you repent He puts it back in.”

All I could picture is a hole forming after so many times of erasing. So that would mean God has to keep adding angels to the team of erasing people’s names out and putting them back in. With that much work there has got to be more than one Lamb’s Book of Life.

You may say that is ridiculous, Julie. Sometimes it is hard to realize how ridiculous our thinking is until someone puts it into plain English. My daughter has these big erasers that says “Not Again” “Big Mistakes” and I forget the other one which leads me to this last thought.


You say God doesn’t make mistakes. Then why does your God need eraser?

To see part two of her story:

I Have A Name Part 2

Lies, More Lies and NTCC Hypocrisy.

I was looking at the facebook pages of people in the NTCC and my stomach began to churn as I thought about how an organization that was built on straight and narrow doctrine has totally departed from their roots. In a world full of hypocrites, phony preachers, money grubbing religions and controlling cults, the NTCC fits right in with the worst of them. Davis, Kekel and Ashmore really lied to a lot of people over and over again when they preached about compromisers and against those who loved the world more than they loved God. The NTCC is a totally different organization than it was 20+ years ago. It'll be a few short years and all traces of outward holiness will no longer be adhered to by the NTCC masses. They used to preach against the "Devil-vision" and the "Sinner-net" but now if they all have facebook pages and twitter accounts and many of them list their favorite TV programs and movies. It's all so clear now to me how that they all are willing participants in a religious scam.

No Time For Souls Anymore, Too Busy On Facebook And Twitter

They now participate in many different groups on Facebook:

No More Boring Ties

1. "No More Boring Ties Page" If you need help picking out a tie you can visit this page. This is a place where you can showcase your ties men, (and those special ladies who know how to pick them). There are a bunch of really flashy and hideous looking ties for just about any occasion. Can't imagine many of them escaping Olson's scrutiny in Practical Theology class. One of the pictures showed about 7 or 8 used dirty looking ties lined up and the caption read something to the effect that they were purchased 2 for 1 dollar at a Kook store or some kind of garage sale. They looked just like the old boring NTCC ties that we were all accustomed to wearing.

Team Letsgowellness

2. "Team Letsgowellness" If you are wanting to lose some weight you can hop on over to this page and you will get lots of pointers from the thin and the fat on how to lose weight. You will even get advise on how to do a proper push up but you might have to ignore 1 Ti 4:8 that says, "Bodily Exercise profiteth little" or just rip it out of the bible. How can you spend time in the Gym when souls are dying and going to hell? Get out there and beat the streets folks. Knock on 100 doors a day and you will get in shape. Get out of your church pew and shout "Amen, Preach it Brudda" and dance so you can work off some of those calories. What happened to the "good old days" in the ntcc when folks used to be over-worked, under-paid, sleep deprived and malnutritioned?

Did You get it?? Photo Challenges

3. "Did You Get It?? Photo Challenges" If you would like to take up photography as a hobby you can visit this page. You will be taught how to take pictures while driving a car. But really, it's amazing when you see all of the places that the modern day NTCC'rs have a chance to visit. Back in the day, camera's were almost a sin. You definitely didn't want to take a picture of Davis, Olsen or any of the board members. If you wanted to get jacked up and have the blocks knocked out from under you, try taking a picture of old Dunlap Disease Davis twenty years ago.

Musica

4. "La Musica" Want some pointers on what chords go with what songs? Join Kekel and others at this group or the closed NTCC click that is simply called the "Musician's Group". These are just a few groups that they participate in because everyone knows that your average NTCC'er has all sorts of time for activities like this. Many of the Davis wanna-be preachers would scowl and bellow about how in 1 Cr 1:18 "God chose the foolishness of preaching to save them that believe". I know it doesn't say that, but that's what they always preached.

You know it's just a matter of time before these hypocrites start breaking all the other rules they once kept so vigilantly.  The ones that have been around for several decades are crazy for staying. They are living, walking, breathing, hypocrites and they should apologize to all the people they shunned for the very things they now participate in openly. Davis and Kekel should resign in disgrace, for being common thugs and liars. They are Snake-oil salesmen that have found a niche in the religious world and have twisted the bible to strike fear in the simple hearts and weak minds of any who would listen, obey and give their money to them.