1993 Rape At The Lodge: Kekel Grabbed Me In Front Of Olson, Davis, and Ashmore

In the previous two posts, Julie alleged that Michael C. Kekel, the NTCC CEO, raped her at his house on the seminary campus in 1990 (read more), and at the campground in Missouri in 1992 when she was 18 (read more). In this post Julie alleges that Kekel grabbed her in front of three other NTCC Executive Board Members, none of whom questioned what he was doing. She then describes his alleged rape and sexual interactions with her, that he reportedly tried to justify by twisting scripture.

I escaped Kekel for a while since I lived in Texas but he wasn’t done with me, I hate to say. A year later he got me in another conference. I left my son in the hotel with a lot of children. He was crying I begged to stay with him I didn’t want to leave my little boy but no I had to go I had no say in life. I had no choice. I find out when I arrive Kekel wants to see me after the sevice. I wondered if it was sex, another spanking, or maybe he found out I have been complaining about the group I hate attending the services. I hate who I was. Maybe he has heard all that.  Then a puzzling thought crosses my mind. Why Kekel and not Davis? I knew then it has to be for sex. I couldn’t tell no one because all they would do is run to the leaders which only made it worse. Why did some people get in trouble for having sex outside of marriage but for some it was okay.  I was told to tell no one including my husband. I didn’t think he would believe ne anyway. Kekel told me this was God’s will but sometimes people don’t understand God’s will so we must keep things quiet. I knew Kekel would give some explanation to explain away what happens why he needs to speak to me if he was questioned.  I noticed all the leaders always had some explanation when questioned about anything. I was sick to my stomach as I try to make it through service. I want to disappear. I went to the bathroom before heading out to the Lodge. Why does he want me? He says I am nasty, ugly, retarded, a burden, and shouldn’t be live. Then I think maybe he is trying to make me worth the air I breathe. One might say if he is so mean to you how you can think he is trying to make you worth like he cared. Well my idea of care was pretty messed up.

Two or Three Witnesses - Monkeying Around

NTCC Executive Board Members Ashmore, Davis, and Olson Don't Question Kekel When Mike Allegedly Grabbed Julie For Yet Another Rape and Sex Session

I make it to the Lodge. I was so overwhelmed that I didn’t pay any attention to who was around except that Kekel was talking to Olson, Davis, and Ashmore. I thought okay all four was to yell at me. This is going to be an insult session but no not this time. Kekel grabbed me. None of other men questioned what he was doing. I closed my eyes I don’t want to see anything. I am scared. I didn’t want to see him I didn’t want to remember. I keep my eyes closed as I undress at his command. He tells me to get on all four I stumble through this then he wants more. He starts doing other things to me I try to stop him I didn’t want it from him. He finally says I am feeling generous you have a chose you can either have me enter you or you can mouth me all the way. I said I am done I want to go. He chuckled you know it will be one or the other. I decided intercourse was better than the other. 

Under My Thumb by The Rolling Stones

The Rolling Stones Under My Thumb Lyric Video on YouTube


DNA Say, we can just picture Kekel zipping up after this rape and sex session with Julie, gleefully singing this tune as he prepares to regale the Executive Board Members with the ribald details of his once again dominating Julie. Unlike Mick Jagger, who sings this song about dominating a woman who once had him down, Mike Kekel and the other NTCC Board Members have held all the power all along and kept Julie under their thumbs from the way she walks and how she talks when she's spoken to... The song is very fitting in that light.  So before all you sanctimonious religious hypocrites choke on a gnat and swallow a camel, ask yourself what is truly evil?  Are we evil for sharing a song that succinctly describes the NTCC mindset against women?  Or are these NTCC leaders who rape and oppress women and children the worst kind of evil in the world?  You decide.

I think this must be okay for surely someone would have heard us and come in by now. If this is okay why I do feel dirty why do I feel this is bad? I am so horrible why someone doesn’t just kill me.  I am married he is married. Why does he tell me God gave me unto him and this is well pleasing unto God? I wasn’t to tell anyone for sexual things were not to be spoke of. He said it is only supposed to be between two people. I ask him if it is supposed to be a secret between two people than why he asks about my sex with others. He says God has put him into a position where he is supposed to be allowed to know everything about everyone. He throws random scriptures at me confusing me into believing he was right.

He leaves me alone until I moved back to Washington to continue stupid pill school or as I use to call it as a child “The Cemetery”.

to be continued

Were these Executive Board Members acting together to oppress Julie, treating her as a sex slave they could call for at will? Is this why they moved Julie back to Washington - so they could all have 'easy access' to her? Where could she go for help? With limited education, no exposure to T.V., the internet, or any sense of how the world operated, to whom could she speak? Could she tell the husband whom the NTCC had hand-picked for her in an arranged marriage that took place when she was only 16 years old? Trained her whole life to think that she was "stupid" "dumb" a "retard" or even "mentally insane" (as if there is another kind?) *sigh*. In constant pain from Cerebral Palsy, with limited mobility and no education, how could she possibly get free? These Executive Board Members held all the power and abused it to make her a sex slave, moving her about the country both at and for their pleasure. It is sickening. It is, in our opinion, human sex trafficking.

UPDATE:

Susie said,

I want to share what happened to me. I have been reading what is on the blog. Julie’s story have really got my attention. I know Julie from way back. I babysat her when she was about 11 or 12 years old. I decided to try to contact her. We chatted online for a while; I asked for her number she gave it to me. I asked if she would mind if I called right then she said no. I was surprised. Let me explain why this surprised me.

I called her. I talked to her for a few minutes. I then asked if she remembered any particular times in which I babysat her. She said yes. I was reading online how she was offering forgives to those that saw things but didn’t save her from the abuse. This is what led me to contact her. One day she was over my house I thought she had did a particular thing I got upset didn’t fully check things out. I told she was going to get a spanking. I told her to wait in the other room. I grabbed a wooden spoon. I ended up spanking but I did not beat her none the less I humiliated her in front of the other kids punishing her for something that I had never verified she had done. It was pretty common to spank other people’s kids. I let my teaching cause me to pretty mean that day.
I asked her on the phone if she remembered that day she said she did. I said why did you agreed to talk to me? She said when I contacted her online God spoke to her heart. We talked of that day. I told her that hurt my heart for a long time what I did to her. I asked if she could find it in her heart to forgive me. She said with such compassion in her voice YES! She continued talking with love in words she shared. I thought if she can show this much love and compassion just maybe there is still hope between me and God. She then asked if I would like her to pray for me. I agreed. She prayed so simple yet there was power in her prayer. She prayed as if she talked to God often. I felt the ache of my heart leave and peace come to me. As she ended the prayer she began to sing to God from deep within and with such heart.
During our conversation she told me to hold on for a moment a few times. I finally asked her if her daughter was up. She said no. I said why did you told me to wait a moment several times? She said oh I am just having a lot of pain sometimes it hits peek points I have to grit my teeth and take deep breaths to get through those moments. She said sorry it must be annoying on your end for me to say just a moment so much. I went oh no you are fine. I thought God she has compassion, love, forgiveness, and care in the middle of her difficults how can I ever complain about my troubles.

Don and Ange I noticed you claim her as a sister. I hope that you realize you have a treasure and a blessing from God with that girl in your lives. She is an angel sent from above in human form with such a humble heart filled with love and compassion. Please always defend and protect her from people that might want to speak against her or use what she says to say hurtful things about her. She so deserves protection after all she has been through no matter how strong she gets.
Growing –up Julie step in to defend and protect many, suffering the pain on others behalves it is nice to finally see someone care about her now.
Anyone that would ever want to say she is out for attention, pity, selfishness, or looking to take center-stage needs to stop look at her comments and her life it shows that those words do not show the character of Julie.

I am not much for writing online but I just wanted to stop in and share this about the one you claim as family and make sure you know what God has given you.

Thanks, Susie, for your comment. We are learning every day what a treasure Julie is; we too learn from her so many things about Christianity in practice:  love, joy, peace, loyalty, giving, humility and compassion - to name a few.  Our relationship with her has developed into what she has dubbed our "friend-familyship" with God in the center of it.  It doesn't get any better than that.   :o)

Anonymous said...Julie I just you to want I read what you shared about grace. As I have read how you have offered forgive to the lady that wronged you; it made me wanted to have a relationship with God like you. I have been away from God for so long I wasn't sure God wanted but you made him so real so simple. You made the love of God more real than anyone I know. I am walking with God now. Thank you for caring about all of us out here. Today God is with me again.

Tuesday, April 15, 2014 7:16:00 PM

DNA say,

This comment makes us so happy! Thank you God for each one who comes back to you. Yay Jesus!!

This just came in from another lady; she recently left the NTCC:

Allie said,

I too want to share the heart of Julie. I contacted her as I planned to leave NTCC except for letting her know we had made it out I haven’t really talked much to her. I contacted her the other day not knowing who else to ask to pray for me. I told her things were tight and I really needed to figure some food until pay day. I asked if she would pray. She prayed including saying God direct someone to help this family out. We ended our conversation that morning.
That evening she contacted me. She told me to look in my in-box of my e-mail she had sent me a message. I went there and found a gift card for my local grocery store. I started crying. I said wait you can’t afford this and didn’t you pray for God to direct someone to help me. She said well sometimes God just wants me to pray for someone sometimes God wants me to act. She said God wanted me to act in this one. She told me she trade with someone a few gift codes for this gift card. God had come through. It was so hard to receive but Julie shared something that really helped me.
Julie said NTCC has taught give give give but never receiving. I said what about the scripture it is more blessed to give then receive. She said okay let’s look at this. She said so if God only wants us to give even speaks of us taking care of those close to us in the family of God. Who does he want us to give to the cows the horses or maybe it is the little piggies. She said to give someone has got to receive. She said God doesn’t give to just one person and if he is our example why would he want us to only give to one person. She said God has a big job in shedding our NTCC way of thinking. It is easy to worry in receiving we may seem greedy or get into the receiving like the leaders but just the fact we are concerned about this, God shows us this proves we would never be as the leaders for our hearts are not into taking from others. Sometimes God will really pour blessings on someone to prove to them how much he loves to give to his children and shed the fear that they will appear as NTCC leaders. She said Just like friendship giving and receiving is a two-way street just understand your giving may not appear as what you receiving because each one has different ways to give and each one has different needs to receive. She said I pray to see what God would have me do in each person’s life. She said if I give when he wouldn’t have me give; a few things can happen one I might lack, two I might not have what is needed for who God would have me give to, and three I might rob someone else the blessing of giving to this person.
I am so blown away with the wisdom Julie has learned. I know she has had to get over NTCC thinking and like she said there are still many things she still has NTCC thinking in but God is patiently working and directing her life.

Tuesday, April 15, 2014 11:20:00 AM

Anonymous said...
So I got out at a good time before my kids where at point where they could be abused? Thank you for sharing I am now at peace with what I decided.
Tuesday, April 15, 2014 12:20:00 PM

Your Voice Saved Our Lives said...

The guts you have Julie to stand up and say I am not going to idly stand by at the risk of another victim. My wife and I got to the bible school about a little over a year ago we were not at peace being there small things we noticed just bothered us. The leaders here are forever wanting alone time with the ladies.

My wife is one of the ladies that cleaned for Tanya and some of the other ladies as well. She told me one day that M. Kekel was in the house and asked to speak with her alone. My wife knew she was to obey the Man of God but her gut just didn't set right. She finally stammered out sir I will gladly speak to you but I would like to wait until my husband is present. My other pastor told me it is not good to be alone with a man including the Man of God. M. Kekel didn't seem happy and told her she could go home. Nothing more was said and she was not allow back to clean. We couldn't figure out what that was all about since nothing happened and not much was said.

We have recently left due to Julie being willing to share the adult sex stuff with us all. Thank you Julie! And I know you would want the Lord to be thanked too so Thank you Lord for watching over my family in letting us know we needed to get out of there.

My children are saved from that pain.

Saturday, April 19, 2014 11:46:00 PM

DNA say,

Good job Anonymous!  God delivered you and you children!  Awesome!

Anonymous said...
Thank you Julie for sharing Jesus. I came to the God in you now I have him in my heart too. My husband who was never in the group witnessed the changed in me wanted to know after walking away from that group how I could want God im my life? I shared what I read on the blog. I said this girl Julie showed me the real Jesus it made me want him like her. My husband asked Jesus into his heart. Some of my friends are noticing I am different I have been able to share with them about Jesus in me.Julie you point Jesus you dont make yourself the center of attention when I look at you Jesus shines so brightly in you that is all I see. Thank you God for showing me Jesus through a broken crippled girl willing to carrying Jesus to the world. Thanks to all that keep this going
Wednesday, April 16, 2014 5:25:00 PM

Anonymous said...
i am extremely grieved at NTCC violating Julie's and other the ladies civil rights . i have interviewed many clients who where sexually abused or raped, and her story sounds just like theirs. julie's account doesn't sound coached ,coerced or attention getting.

Friday, April 18, 2014 9:45:00 PM

Loving God said...
My heart is so grieved by what I am reading about your life. I have got out and I have my family. In fact we are having a big family Easter get together. I have been able to put it all behind me but I didn't suffer what you suffered. I hope somehow you can have peace at this time in your life knowing that Christ died for you and rose again that you can have liberty in him.
I have never experienced your life so I will not even pretend to know how you feel or should feel. I just hope you know God loves you right now. He feels your struggles and pain you have today. I know you live for God but I also know with pain some days it can feel like the depression overcomes you. My prayers are with you.
Saturday, April 19, 2014 11:23:00 AM

Anonymous said...
So you are the girl that Rev. Kekel has been speaking about. He has been saying some ugly things about you.
[...]
I too would have never heard of you or known to look on this blog had he not spent so much time speaking against you.

With everything that has happened to you, having no family, and what you deal with now in all this, it has got to be hard being you.
I left NTCC yesterday because you cared enough to speak out about the truth. I pray for you and hope you keep speaking until all hear what has happened in this place people call a church organization.
Wednesday, April 16, 2014 2:10:00 PM

Anonymous said...I too heard Rev kekel speak horribly of Julie. It was thr worse I have even heard. My wife and I left the bible school to hear a lady spoke of in such a nasty manner we were shocked. This shoudnt have happened.

Friday, April 18, 2014 1:39:00 PM

Sam said...
This will be our first weekend away from NTCC. We have struggled yet enjoyed this week. My wife has seen me at the dinner table more then she has in a few years. Before it was work then the work of God always having to heat up my dinner after church or soul-winning. It is different eating so early. Don and Ange you probably think ill of us for now we want to just read and pray at home together not go to church. We just want us and God. We been doing this all week long and it has been incredible and a blessing to our souls.
Julie thank you! You gave me the wake-up call my wife had been praying to God about. My wife has walking with God not willing to be like other pastor's wives she has seen even been called out for it. I was so blind I thought she was wrong but now I realize when she keep saying this place isn't follow God she spoke the truth.

Saturday, April 19, 2014 8:09:00 AM

Dear Sam and Fam,

We are so happy for you to have made "The Great Escape"!!!  We certainly DO NOT  think ill  of you for wanting to  just read and pray at home together. 
One thing we know, the church is Christ's body.  He said,

For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them. - Mat 18:20 KJV

And I, if I be lifted up from the earth, will draw all [men] unto me. - Jhn 12:32 KJV

And I say also unto thee, That thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it. - Mat 16:18 KJV

When you gather in His name, He is there.  When He is lifted up, He draws all to Himself.  He WILL build HIS CHURCH.  The gates of hell will not prevail.

People have a saying that we love, "BE THE CHURCH".  We love it because it puts the focus back on Christ. We are to be members of His body (which is the church:

Now ye are the body of Christ, and members in particular. - 1 Cor 12:27 KJV

We are His body, His members like the hands that reach out to the homeless, the heart that breaks for the abused, the voice that shares what He has done for us, how that by His stripes we are healed (1 Peter 2:24 here, Isa 53:5 here).

When leaving a controlling cult like ntcc, it is a good idea to take time and enjoy your RELATIONSHIP with Christ.  When looking at other churches, pray so that you do not allow the false ntcc doctrine to cause you to be too critical.  Visit different groups and look for people who live like the Bible example set forth by Christ.  Do the leaders serve other people?  Is there unconditional love that abides even when people are sinning?  Is the church a place of healing?  Are there controls? Or is there the liberty found where there is the Spirit of Christ?

Now the Lord is that Spirit: and where the Spirit of the Lord [is], there [is] liberty. - 2Co 3:17 KJV

Be a fruit inspector. Don't be too quick to commit to only one group. Find out first what they are really like. Maintain your liberty in Christ to visit other churches.  Believe us, normal and healthy churches do not resent or fear that. They embrace working together with other churches and even have a name for it:  

Ecumenical:

ec·u·men·i·cal

  [ek-yoo-men-i-kuhl or, esp. British, ee-kyoo-]  

adjective

1.

general; universal.

2.

pertaining to the whole Christian church.

3.

promoting or fostering Christian unity throughout the world.

4.

of or pertaining to a movement (ecumenical movement)  especially among Protestant groups since the 1800s, aimed at achieving universal Christian unity and church union through international interdenominational organizations that cooperate on matters of mutual concern.

5.

inter-religious or interdenominational: an ecumenical marriage.

Love God first with all your heart, mind, strength. Love your neighbor as yourself.  The rest will follow.

Don't worry about what we or anyone else thinks.  Seek His face. Seek His approval. His is the vote that counts. :o)  And we get the sense that you have His approval, based on what you wrote:

We just want us and God. We been doing this all week long and it has been incredible and a blessing to our souls.

The Bible records:

For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God.

 - Rom 8:14 KJV

For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.

 - Rom 8:15 KJV

The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God:

 - Rom 8:16 KJV

Who [is] he that condemneth? [It is] Christ that died, yea rather, that is risen again, who is even at the right hand of God, who also maketh intercession for us.

 - Rom 8:34 KJV

Beloved, if our heart condemn us not, [then] have we confidence toward God. 

- 1Jo 3:21 KJV

Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith Christ hath made us free, and be not entangled again with the yoke of bondage.
 - Gal 5:1 KJV

Don and Ange said...

If you've just left NTCC Lisa Norton said she will be praying especially for you to find your healing. We too will be praying for that and more.

Friday, April 18, 2014 9:07:00 PM

Julie said,
[...]
Thank you Jesus! Only God can work like this in people's lives. Know that you have many people praying for you so many.
Hugs,Julie
Saturday, April 19, 2014 8:19:00 AM

For those of you who haven't yet met Julie or don't know anything about her, we feel this next song / video perfectly portrays her god-heart, the following scriptures her life-prayer:

Whom have I in heaven [but thee]? and [there is] none upon earth [that] I desire beside thee. - Psa 73:25 KJV

17 Although the fig tree shall not blossom, neither [shall] fruit [be] in the vines; the labour of the olive shall fail, and the fields shall yield no meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and [there shall be] no herd in the stalls: 18 Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the God of my salvation. 19 The LORD God [is] my strength, and he will make my feet like hinds' [feet], and he will make me to walk upon mine high places. To the chief singer on my stringed instruments. - Hab 3:17-19 KJV

... weeping may endure for a night, but joy [cometh] in the morning. - Psa 30:5 KJV [partial]

Yet Will I Sing by Audra Lynn Video Link

And while we love Julie as much as anyone, we want everyone to remember, it is Jesus Who died for us to set us free. He deserves all the praise and glory.  Love you Lord!

As the testimonies continue to pour in, we thank God for each person He delivers from sin. Thank You Jesus!

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